Disapperate (July 13th)

I'm doing all the work
Yet I'm the one unnoticed
Never to be recognized
For who I truly am.

Not in such a good mood anymore, just because that kind of mood is so rare for me. But I didn't post yesterday, so I'm back today.

Zach's party was cool, even though we didn't watch alot of I Love the '90s. We spent about an hour throwing a soccer ball at a tree, trying to get down something Muffin threw up there, and then spent probably an hour yelling at my friend's boyfriend. (Soon to be ex, maybe?)

Tomorrow is my party and hopefully it will go well. Will make sure to tape A2Z when I watch it earlier, before people get here. Otherwise I will miss very interesting things about Johnny Depp! Oh no what a tragedy!

Wrote a couple poems recently that I felt like showing you guys. They're based on movies I just saw.

The Brave
I will die for the ones I love
And never say a word
I will walk out the door
And never say goodbye
I will kiss you while you sleep
Then leave, never to return
I will lay down my life
Then you will be prosperous
I will do anything for you
I will spare you all the pain
I will love you today and always
For today is the day I die.
--7/6/04

Butterfly Effect
I did it to fix everything
And make you forget what I
Thought I never knew
Shed my blood to resurrect
A past that should have stayed forgotten
Or maybe never existed
I'm sorry but I had to be the hero
Too single-minded and determined
Forgive me for everything
I never meant to abandon you
Now I've come back
To leave you forever.
--7/11/04

I know these poems make sense if you've seen the movies (of the same titles). I hope they're good though anyway.