Breathe

Breathe, breathe in the air
Don't be afraid to care
Leave but don't leave me
Look around and choose your own ground
For long you live and high you fly
And smiles you'll give and tears yo'll cry
And all you touch and all you see
Is all your life will ever be
~*~"Breathe" Pink Floyd, Dark Side of the Moon

Post 86! I know, exciting, isn't it? Sure. Just go with it. Anyway. So once again, I am binding myself by a tv show. I somehow let myself get caught up in Battle of the Sexes 2 on MTV... I tell you that station is no good for me. And the second to last episode is on tonight so I have to go in a few minutes to see it. But in the meantime, let me throw out a few poems I wrote last night.

Pinhole View
My confusion
Of my own creation
Leaves me unable to see
Outside a tiny peek
From that extracted of the
So-called real world
But real is a relative term
That bends to fit anyone's needs
And therefore I allow you
To create your own outlook
Keep in mind you get just one.
And now your fate awaits you.
--1/16/05

Polarity
The light turns dark
I turn depressed
The dark turns light
I turn a blind eye to pessimism
The day turns to night
I turn to life and jump in head first
The night turns to day
I turn faded and silent
The screams turn to a whisper
I turn to an echo of a story long forgotten
The whisper turns to a scream
I turn to a burning memory emblazed on the sky of stars.
--1/16/05

Adaptation
I felt in the darkness
A presence next to me
PErhaps a figment of my imagination
Not relevant in any world but mine
Though it matters not
For people in such a world as theirs
Leave me lonely and wanting
More
Something I am sure to never have
And in this night
I leave you lonely
To be me and only me
For now and evermore.
--1/16/05

And that is all for now, my dear friends. But you know my name and number, and I'm always up for a chat. Oh one exciting thing though... My dad got me a Queer Eye calendar! Yay! I needed a calendar. And that was the one I wanted anyway. So I'm happy. Hah. Pathetic.

Love to all cause love is good!