I Hope, I Think, I Know

They're trying hard to put me in my place
And that is why I've gotta keep running
The future is mine and it's no disgrace
Cos in the end the past means nothing
You tell me I'm free then you tie me down
And from my chains I think it's a pity
What did it cost you to wear my crown
You dont like me why don't you admit it

D'you feel a little down today?
Bet you ain't got much to say?
But your gonna miss me when I'm not there
You know I dont care, You know I dont care

As we beg and steal and borrow
Life is hit and miss and this
I Hope, I Think, I Know
And if I hear the names you call
If I stumble catch me when I fall
Cos baby after all, You'll never forget my name
~*~"I Hope, I Think, I Know" Oasis

So there you go. More things to think about, as I have been so faithfully doing at 3 in the morning for over a week now. I just haven't been able to sleep for days and days... I don't know why.

So tonight I went to a dinner at a church member's house. It was basically a thing for new members, which I'm not really, because I've gone to the church all my life, but I officially signed the book in October. (Cause you can't sign until you're a certain age and once I was I was then not frequenting church that frequently.)

Anywho. Mitch came over today for a few hours and we had fun. He brought this extremely strange card game that got really boring after a while, so he suicided all his cards and gave his AP points or whatever to me and I somehow won. *shurg* Don't ask, I don't plan on ever playing agian. We watched some good ol' Fairly Odd Parents and played a little bit of Game Cube (in which Mitch kicked my ass and then my brother kicked his ass) so all was just fascinating excitement.

I'm on now because I'm supposed to be talking to Leslie, but she isn't here... she's been idle for a while now. I can't believe I've been blown off! *gasp* Well! I'll show her! Yeah right. Can't do that. We're too cool. And we both know it... so we can never do anything to the other. We need eachother too much for our JDOCD (DON'T ASK unless you want to sit in a room with me for many many days as I read you articles and show you movies and talk and talk and talk about Johnny Depp. Trust me it happens. People die. Others come out half as crazy as me *cause you can't be as crazy, except Leslie* ok enough of that!)

So for now I'm just sitting here with my rants and musings raving, a few leaking out here and there into my typing. I really have some books I want to read that I should go tend to, but I'm kind of hoping Leslie will come back... She was here earlier, but I think wasn't on IM, so she became un-idle but still away-ish. Ok wow. That is quite an incoherent sentance. I'm not even going to try and rephrase it. Have fun with that one!

Haha this is what you get for reading the writings of a person who's on no sleep. It's sad that it's at this exact momnent, 10:52 and I am tired. Of course, there is no way I will be going to sleep, so I'm not even going to bother. So I'm just going to keep talking. Let me know how far you get before you decide you've had enough. It'll be a contest. The person who reads the most gets... um... I'll think of something good! Maybe by the end (hah) of this post, whenever that is. See you tomorrow, then!

I've been thinking a lot about what I do right in life. That's right, rather than focusing on bad things, I focus on good things now. Isn't that awesome for me??? It's a huge step that it's taken a long time to take. But look at this: if you focus on doing the things you do right, the things you do wrong won't be done anymore. They'll either become right too, or they'll go away. And before you say that's ridiculous (bull's pizzle, Mr. Barrie), how about just trying it? What harm can come of it? It's not going to ruin the good things, and the bad things are already bad, so who cares? It's up to you. I won't make you do anything. You all know that. Just think.

I've been telling you all to think a lot lately. Because actually thinking is different from just having thoughts. Haha, doesn't that sound like a paradox? Oh but it's not, my friends. If we define a thought as x (i.e "I'm hungry" "I have homework to do" "That idiot stole the TV. I was watching that!" "Johnny Depp is really hot!" well maybe that one's just me), then x= infinate possibilities. If thoughts = actions, we can call actions x squared. Thinking, however, is both a completely different field. It's on a different plane, if you will. Thinking is not x, because it doesn't result in any particular action. It's just thinking. In fact, thinking for me results in the non-action of not-sleeping.

Okay well my parents have actually figured out I should get off the computer. So have fun with my brain full of too much geometry and biology and I'll see you all later!

Love to all cause love is good!