ANGEL and MIMI
To handcrafted beers made in loca breweries
To yoga, to yogurt to rice and beans and cheese
To leather to dildos to curry vindaloo
To juevos rancheros and Maya Angelou
~*~"La Vie Boheme" RENT
Wow it's so hard to pick one part of that song... It's like 8 minutes long and the show stopping number. Which is interesting, since it's towards the end of the first act.
Speaking of RENT, I found out that RENT is coming to the Rialto Square Theatre in October to do a couple shows, and I am determined to go see it. lol. I'm such a nerd. Oh well.
Well, because I posted late, I don't have a lot of time to write. My mom seems to think that if she sends me to bed earlier and earlier, eventually I'll get to sleep at a decent time. So I'm sposed to be in bed at 10.
Monday, September 27, 2004
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Over The Moon
MAUREEN
I gotta get outta here
It's like I'm being tied to the
Hood of a yellow rental truck
Bein packed in with fertilizer
And fuel oil pushed
Over a cliff by a
Suicidal Mickey Mouse
~*~"Over the Moon" RENT
Yes, I know perfectly well that that makes no sense. That's the beauty of it. Total insanity. I would try and explain it, but it doesn't really make much sense, even if you know what the context of the scene is. Maureen's song (Over the Moon) is a protest thingy, and it's extremely strange. So don't worry about it. Not understanding this does not mean that you are not a genius. (Although it doesn't mean that you are one, either)
So today I went to church. Con forms have finally arrived! Yay! Fall con is in Springfield where Martin, our old minister, is at now, so we'll all get to see him. (we all being whoever actually goes to con. last time it was just me and Zoe.) I can't wait though. It's early this year, 2 weeks before Halloween. To all my friends whom I have been trying to get to church: next Sunday is a "Bring a friend Sunday" so you can all come and it will be fun. I go to the service at 9 and youth group at 10. Lemme know if you can come. If you happen to be able to get involved in my youth group, you can come to cons with me. Cons = youth CONferences in which my youth advisor (Heather) takes as many people from the youth group as can come to a church and we party. there's workshops during the day a worship service in the evening on saturday; you spend friday night in someones house with a bunch of people, sunday you have a little closing gathering thing. warning: you don't get much sleep and you will be very tired when it is all over. Last con I got 2 hours of sleep in 72 hours. Those 2 hours were Friday night - Saturday I didn't sleep at all. I stayed up playing silent football, which is neither silent nor football. strike your attention? Gotta come to con to find out what it is.
Anyway. So I've gone on enough. I'm gonna go play guitar. I'm getting good at those Rent songs I'm learning. Yeah. So I'm gonna go.
I gotta get outta here
It's like I'm being tied to the
Hood of a yellow rental truck
Bein packed in with fertilizer
And fuel oil pushed
Over a cliff by a
Suicidal Mickey Mouse
~*~"Over the Moon" RENT
Yes, I know perfectly well that that makes no sense. That's the beauty of it. Total insanity. I would try and explain it, but it doesn't really make much sense, even if you know what the context of the scene is. Maureen's song (Over the Moon) is a protest thingy, and it's extremely strange. So don't worry about it. Not understanding this does not mean that you are not a genius. (Although it doesn't mean that you are one, either)
So today I went to church. Con forms have finally arrived! Yay! Fall con is in Springfield where Martin, our old minister, is at now, so we'll all get to see him. (we all being whoever actually goes to con. last time it was just me and Zoe.) I can't wait though. It's early this year, 2 weeks before Halloween. To all my friends whom I have been trying to get to church: next Sunday is a "Bring a friend Sunday" so you can all come and it will be fun. I go to the service at 9 and youth group at 10. Lemme know if you can come. If you happen to be able to get involved in my youth group, you can come to cons with me. Cons = youth CONferences in which my youth advisor (Heather) takes as many people from the youth group as can come to a church and we party. there's workshops during the day a worship service in the evening on saturday; you spend friday night in someones house with a bunch of people, sunday you have a little closing gathering thing. warning: you don't get much sleep and you will be very tired when it is all over. Last con I got 2 hours of sleep in 72 hours. Those 2 hours were Friday night - Saturday I didn't sleep at all. I stayed up playing silent football, which is neither silent nor football. strike your attention? Gotta come to con to find out what it is.
Anyway. So I've gone on enough. I'm gonna go play guitar. I'm getting good at those Rent songs I'm learning. Yeah. So I'm gonna go.
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Christmas Bells
COLLINS
You don't have to do this -
ANGEL
Hush your mouth it's Christmas
COLLINS*
I do not deserve you Angel
Give Give
All you do is
Give
Give me some way
To show you
How you've touched me so
ANGEL*
Wait!
What's on the floor?
Let's see some more
No no no no
ANGEL
Kiss me it's beginning to snow
~*~"Christmas Bells" RENT
*Collins and Angel are singing at the same time. That was kind of hard to do, but it's a really cute scene during that song, so I had to use it. I'm such a sucker for cute love songs. And at other times they make me cry. Or throw up. But on to other matters.
So I haven't posted much lately, but I've been really busy. Let's see... Wednesday and Thursday I was sick. Okay, I'm still sick, but those 2 days I was like, incoherant, like on another planet or something. I apologize, Jordan, for making you sit through all my sneezing fits on Wednesday. I will try not to contaminate your air space anymore. lol.
Friday I was back at school to take lots of tests, and then went to auditions for fall play after school. That was fun. I got to scream with a sore throat. At least I got to say "a penguin just bit me!" That was really funny. But anyway. So I got home at about 5, and then my mom and I went to New Lenox to get my new dance shoes... She was so happy to find out I needed new pointe shoes, new jazz shoes, and a new leotard. I told her to look on the bright side: at least I didn't need new ballet shoes, and since my feet don't grow anymore, I will have to wear these shoes out before I get new ones.
Today I went to ADC to try and find a leotard (which I didn't). and then we picked up my brother at home to take him to his soccer game. On the way we dropped me off at Rich East so I could help out with the car wash. That was a lot of fun, actually. I was there for about 3 hours washing cars. Though I spent the first half hour out on the corner yelling, trying to get people to come to the car wash. And in case you don't know, you have to yell REALLY loud when you're standing on Sauk Trail about to get run over by a bunch of cars. Yeah. But once I got to actually wash cars it was pretty fun. Although Taylor got me numerous times with the hose, and once twice with a sponge, Kevin got me with the hose, and either Tara or Tana hit me with a wet towel... damn that one hurt. But yeah. Got soaking wet, cleaned a lotta cars, and spent time with friends. Then Stadt gave me a ride home in her nice new car.
Had a bunch of chores to do when I got home, then I ate dinner, did homework, and now I'm here. And since I'm here, I'm going to post a poem I wrote yesterday during civics.
Incineration
I don't want to live forever
I just want to start this over
I don't understand what hate is
I just want to be with you now
Someone explain all the fire
In the creeping darkness -
Teach me how to burn
I've learned all my lessons
Before I've fallen -
With nothing left to give
Surrendering - to your power
Living in my mind
Surrendering - to my obsession
Seeking what really is
Manifest in a world of isolation
Connect - on a frozen plane
Death tonight in a world awakend
Gone in the whisper of a sunrise
--9/24/04
So lemme know what you think. Post a comment for a change! I know there's people out there reading... I always talk to people, and they say, "oh yeah, I read your blog," so why not post a comment while you're at it? It doesn't take that much work. Come on guys, or what's the point of it all in the end?
You don't have to do this -
ANGEL
Hush your mouth it's Christmas
COLLINS*
I do not deserve you Angel
Give Give
All you do is
Give
Give me some way
To show you
How you've touched me so
ANGEL*
Wait!
What's on the floor?
Let's see some more
No no no no
ANGEL
Kiss me it's beginning to snow
~*~"Christmas Bells" RENT
*Collins and Angel are singing at the same time. That was kind of hard to do, but it's a really cute scene during that song, so I had to use it. I'm such a sucker for cute love songs. And at other times they make me cry. Or throw up. But on to other matters.
So I haven't posted much lately, but I've been really busy. Let's see... Wednesday and Thursday I was sick. Okay, I'm still sick, but those 2 days I was like, incoherant, like on another planet or something. I apologize, Jordan, for making you sit through all my sneezing fits on Wednesday. I will try not to contaminate your air space anymore. lol.
Friday I was back at school to take lots of tests, and then went to auditions for fall play after school. That was fun. I got to scream with a sore throat. At least I got to say "a penguin just bit me!" That was really funny. But anyway. So I got home at about 5, and then my mom and I went to New Lenox to get my new dance shoes... She was so happy to find out I needed new pointe shoes, new jazz shoes, and a new leotard. I told her to look on the bright side: at least I didn't need new ballet shoes, and since my feet don't grow anymore, I will have to wear these shoes out before I get new ones.
Today I went to ADC to try and find a leotard (which I didn't). and then we picked up my brother at home to take him to his soccer game. On the way we dropped me off at Rich East so I could help out with the car wash. That was a lot of fun, actually. I was there for about 3 hours washing cars. Though I spent the first half hour out on the corner yelling, trying to get people to come to the car wash. And in case you don't know, you have to yell REALLY loud when you're standing on Sauk Trail about to get run over by a bunch of cars. Yeah. But once I got to actually wash cars it was pretty fun. Although Taylor got me numerous times with the hose, and once twice with a sponge, Kevin got me with the hose, and either Tara or Tana hit me with a wet towel... damn that one hurt. But yeah. Got soaking wet, cleaned a lotta cars, and spent time with friends. Then Stadt gave me a ride home in her nice new car.
Had a bunch of chores to do when I got home, then I ate dinner, did homework, and now I'm here. And since I'm here, I'm going to post a poem I wrote yesterday during civics.
Incineration
I don't want to live forever
I just want to start this over
I don't understand what hate is
I just want to be with you now
Someone explain all the fire
In the creeping darkness -
Teach me how to burn
I've learned all my lessons
Before I've fallen -
With nothing left to give
Surrendering - to your power
Living in my mind
Surrendering - to my obsession
Seeking what really is
Manifest in a world of isolation
Connect - on a frozen plane
Death tonight in a world awakend
Gone in the whisper of a sunrise
--9/24/04
So lemme know what you think. Post a comment for a change! I know there's people out there reading... I always talk to people, and they say, "oh yeah, I read your blog," so why not post a comment while you're at it? It doesn't take that much work. Come on guys, or what's the point of it all in the end?
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
We're Okay
JOANNE
So tell them we'll sue
But a settlement will do
Sexual harrassment- oh and civil rights too
Steve, you're great
~*~"We're Okay" RENT
That's a really wierd song, and kind of confusing, because she's talking to 3 people on the phone at the same time, so I won't try and post any more of it right now.
I'm at school actually, just got done taking some math test thingy so that they can tell me I'm really good at math. Again. How many more of these things do I have to take? *yawn* I'm tired
So I went to dance yesterday and it was fun. I was glad to get back. Actually, my feet really hurt right now because I got back on my pointe shoes yesterday for the first time in a LONG time. Ow. But it's all good. I think I'm switich to Tuesday night though, hopefully. I am going back tonight to make up for the class I missed last week. If I switch to tomorrow, I can take class with blondie. Woo! lol.
So I got braces put on 2 of my teeth yesterday, that was joyous. But it will close up that stupid space, so I'm not going to complain. Much. Maybe.
Stopped over at FT after my ortho appointment and talked to everybody for a little bit. I'm going back Thursday when we have our half day. I miss all my cool teachers! Here's okay, but not as much fun. Though I'm glad I'm out of FT.
Sunday was busy, actually. I went to church, and then me, Mandy, and Alice went out to lunch at Schoops. I spent a little bit of time at the art fair, but it was kind of boring, so I only stayed for about a half an hour. Spent most of the time talking to Dawn - she had me sign up for auditions next summer to be in Anne of Green Gables. We'll see how that goes; Etel wants me to be in her summerfest show next summer too. I'm in such high demand! lol. I may be able to do both actually. That would be cool. I love performing... I talked it over with my mom and she agrees that with voice lessons I could actually have a good voice, so I may get to do that sometime in the future. After my mom gets a job, that is. Whenever that is. For now I'm working on the dancing and acting aspects of Broadway. hah.
Watched the Emmys on Sunday night. But I was really tired and fell asleep right towards the end - before 10:00! What is wrong with me? (I then also took a 3 hour nap yesterday afternoon)
Ok got to go - the bell just rang. Or rather the music played. But whatever. Later.
So tell them we'll sue
But a settlement will do
Sexual harrassment- oh and civil rights too
Steve, you're great
~*~"We're Okay" RENT
That's a really wierd song, and kind of confusing, because she's talking to 3 people on the phone at the same time, so I won't try and post any more of it right now.
I'm at school actually, just got done taking some math test thingy so that they can tell me I'm really good at math. Again. How many more of these things do I have to take? *yawn* I'm tired
So I went to dance yesterday and it was fun. I was glad to get back. Actually, my feet really hurt right now because I got back on my pointe shoes yesterday for the first time in a LONG time. Ow. But it's all good. I think I'm switich to Tuesday night though, hopefully. I am going back tonight to make up for the class I missed last week. If I switch to tomorrow, I can take class with blondie. Woo! lol.
So I got braces put on 2 of my teeth yesterday, that was joyous. But it will close up that stupid space, so I'm not going to complain. Much. Maybe.
Stopped over at FT after my ortho appointment and talked to everybody for a little bit. I'm going back Thursday when we have our half day. I miss all my cool teachers! Here's okay, but not as much fun. Though I'm glad I'm out of FT.
Sunday was busy, actually. I went to church, and then me, Mandy, and Alice went out to lunch at Schoops. I spent a little bit of time at the art fair, but it was kind of boring, so I only stayed for about a half an hour. Spent most of the time talking to Dawn - she had me sign up for auditions next summer to be in Anne of Green Gables. We'll see how that goes; Etel wants me to be in her summerfest show next summer too. I'm in such high demand! lol. I may be able to do both actually. That would be cool. I love performing... I talked it over with my mom and she agrees that with voice lessons I could actually have a good voice, so I may get to do that sometime in the future. After my mom gets a job, that is. Whenever that is. For now I'm working on the dancing and acting aspects of Broadway. hah.
Watched the Emmys on Sunday night. But I was really tired and fell asleep right towards the end - before 10:00! What is wrong with me? (I then also took a 3 hour nap yesterday afternoon)
Ok got to go - the bell just rang. Or rather the music played. But whatever. Later.
Saturday, September 18, 2004
I'll Cover You
ANGEL
Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
With one thousand kisses
Be my lover and
I'll cover you
COLLINS
Open your door
I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage to lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll ne there and
I'll cover you
BOTH
I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are, my love
On life... Be my life
~*~"I'll Cover You" RENT
Oh the days when they were happy... Anyway. Somehow these songs keep working out and becoming quite apropos. I love you Lonzo! That was so sweet yesterday... hehe.
Today was a fantastic day. I had so much fun and I felt so good... I love Mandy! WEEE! In case you didn't know, today was the AIDS walk in Chicago. The GSA and the NHS from Rich East went, and it was awesome. Me and Mandy talked for a little while on the way up there, while we ate donuts, then we took a nap (cause we got up so early) the rest of the way. Got to the place and registered and got our numbers, and then we talked more... When the race started we got coffee from the Starbucks table (cause they're one of the sponsors) and set off. Michael and Eudora (Michael - GSA guy. quite fun. Eudora - NHS chick. Alica's older sister.) joined us after the crowd thinned out a little bit. And as we were walking and talking, Mandy noticed this guy in front of us and it was really really funny because you could tell he was gay, just by the way he walked. I mean, he like swished his hips and swung his arms and everything. It was fucking hilarious. And he was hot too! And with a hot boyfriend! And so the four of us followed them, keeping pace, Michael drooling all the way (cause he had a hot ass... believe me. lol), me laughing like a lunatic, Mandy just kind of rolling her eyes, and Eudora not really doing anything. Then after a while, Mand wanted to walk slower, so I stayed back to walk with her, and we just talked for a long time about all kinds of things. Michael and Eudora slowed up so that we caught up to them, and the 4 of us finished together - 5K (3.1miles: and I was ready to go a second time. It went by really fast!). We were the first of our RE group. It was pretty cool.
So then we sat and talked some more, and once all our group was together, we got back on the bus and went to Connie's, where Mandy and I talked more. We shared a really yummy chicken thing. I can never remember the name... Yeah but then there was the whole fiasco with the food... people not paying as much as they were sposed to so people who didn't sit at our table started giving us money... it was crazy but not worth stating here all over again.
On the bus ride home the some of us GSA people had quite a heated discussion with some of the kinds from Youth Alive, which is a prayer group that meets at our school. There were some interesting points brought up. I wanted to talk more, but I'm just THE freshman, and I was kept plenty busy listening, so it's all good. I loved being around so many incredibly smart people. It was amazing. Just a really great time.
After I got home we went to the animal shelter and looked at puppies. Well, my family did. I played with a bunch of little kittens. I figure, if we get a dog, we'll bring it home and I can play with it all the time. We're never getting a kitten, so I should play with them while I can. And I did and it was lots of fun. I did look at the dogs though, and we played with this really cute shepard mix puppy named Georgie. He's still really young, so we'd be able to rename him. (We've already decided on Cosmo for the name) I think he was a little over 2 months. I liked him, but I don't want him to get much bigger than he is, and from what the shelter lady said, he's still got quite a bit of growing to do. But we'll see. My mom really liked him, and she's gonna go back on Monday to talk more seriously to the shelter people. It would be fun to have a dog, I guess. But I don't know how we're going to afford a dog when we can't afford... other things. I dunno. Best not to judge before things happen.
I spray painted one of my dressers today. It's black and silver to match the bookshelf I did a while ago. And we got the stuff to make my window shades, so my room is slowly coming together. The last thing that will need to be done is paint, it looks like. You can all come over and help - we'll have a painting party! woo! lol. My room is gonna look so cool when I'm done with it. Tomorrow I'm going to look at closet door handles, which is a good thing. Right now I have screws sticking out of the doors, which pose a bit of a safety problem to anyone with skin.
I'm having a good time with my guitar... Learning all the RENT songs from that book. It's really cool. I like being able to bring the music to life myself. Although I do murder it terribly the first couple times because I never remember to look for sharps and flats. (Not to mention I have to teach myself how to finger sharps and flats, because my crappy guitar book doesn't teach me.) It's all good though. And it's very calming. So things are going well. I'm loving things right now. Lots of things, many people, several places, a few times, a couple words, one me!
Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
With one thousand kisses
Be my lover and
I'll cover you
COLLINS
Open your door
I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage to lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll ne there and
I'll cover you
BOTH
I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are, my love
On life... Be my life
~*~"I'll Cover You" RENT
Oh the days when they were happy... Anyway. Somehow these songs keep working out and becoming quite apropos. I love you Lonzo! That was so sweet yesterday... hehe.
Today was a fantastic day. I had so much fun and I felt so good... I love Mandy! WEEE! In case you didn't know, today was the AIDS walk in Chicago. The GSA and the NHS from Rich East went, and it was awesome. Me and Mandy talked for a little while on the way up there, while we ate donuts, then we took a nap (cause we got up so early) the rest of the way. Got to the place and registered and got our numbers, and then we talked more... When the race started we got coffee from the Starbucks table (cause they're one of the sponsors) and set off. Michael and Eudora (Michael - GSA guy. quite fun. Eudora - NHS chick. Alica's older sister.) joined us after the crowd thinned out a little bit. And as we were walking and talking, Mandy noticed this guy in front of us and it was really really funny because you could tell he was gay, just by the way he walked. I mean, he like swished his hips and swung his arms and everything. It was fucking hilarious. And he was hot too! And with a hot boyfriend! And so the four of us followed them, keeping pace, Michael drooling all the way (cause he had a hot ass... believe me. lol), me laughing like a lunatic, Mandy just kind of rolling her eyes, and Eudora not really doing anything. Then after a while, Mand wanted to walk slower, so I stayed back to walk with her, and we just talked for a long time about all kinds of things. Michael and Eudora slowed up so that we caught up to them, and the 4 of us finished together - 5K (3.1miles: and I was ready to go a second time. It went by really fast!). We were the first of our RE group. It was pretty cool.
So then we sat and talked some more, and once all our group was together, we got back on the bus and went to Connie's, where Mandy and I talked more. We shared a really yummy chicken thing. I can never remember the name... Yeah but then there was the whole fiasco with the food... people not paying as much as they were sposed to so people who didn't sit at our table started giving us money... it was crazy but not worth stating here all over again.
On the bus ride home the some of us GSA people had quite a heated discussion with some of the kinds from Youth Alive, which is a prayer group that meets at our school. There were some interesting points brought up. I wanted to talk more, but I'm just THE freshman, and I was kept plenty busy listening, so it's all good. I loved being around so many incredibly smart people. It was amazing. Just a really great time.
After I got home we went to the animal shelter and looked at puppies. Well, my family did. I played with a bunch of little kittens. I figure, if we get a dog, we'll bring it home and I can play with it all the time. We're never getting a kitten, so I should play with them while I can. And I did and it was lots of fun. I did look at the dogs though, and we played with this really cute shepard mix puppy named Georgie. He's still really young, so we'd be able to rename him. (We've already decided on Cosmo for the name) I think he was a little over 2 months. I liked him, but I don't want him to get much bigger than he is, and from what the shelter lady said, he's still got quite a bit of growing to do. But we'll see. My mom really liked him, and she's gonna go back on Monday to talk more seriously to the shelter people. It would be fun to have a dog, I guess. But I don't know how we're going to afford a dog when we can't afford... other things. I dunno. Best not to judge before things happen.
I spray painted one of my dressers today. It's black and silver to match the bookshelf I did a while ago. And we got the stuff to make my window shades, so my room is slowly coming together. The last thing that will need to be done is paint, it looks like. You can all come over and help - we'll have a painting party! woo! lol. My room is gonna look so cool when I'm done with it. Tomorrow I'm going to look at closet door handles, which is a good thing. Right now I have screws sticking out of the doors, which pose a bit of a safety problem to anyone with skin.
I'm having a good time with my guitar... Learning all the RENT songs from that book. It's really cool. I like being able to bring the music to life myself. Although I do murder it terribly the first couple times because I never remember to look for sharps and flats. (Not to mention I have to teach myself how to finger sharps and flats, because my crappy guitar book doesn't teach me.) It's all good though. And it's very calming. So things are going well. I'm loving things right now. Lots of things, many people, several places, a few times, a couple words, one me!
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Santa Fe
ANGEL
New York City -
COLLINS
Uh-huh
ANGEL
Center of the universe
COLLINS
Sing it girl -
ANGEL
It's a comfort to know
When you're singing the hit-the-road blues
That anywhere else you could possible go
Afer New York would be a pleasure cruise
~*~"Santa Fe" RENT
Ironic how completely opposite that is from the poem I'm about to post. I wrote it on the plane on the way home from NY.
Neverland
Started out in a small town
Discovered the city when I was only 5 years old
And from my first glimpse of skyscrapers
I knew where I belonged
I'm taking back to my body
But I'm leaving my heart where it belongs
Someday I'll make it back to New York City
Back where I belong
Don't belong in that small town
I suffocate in the open fields
Can only breathe between the buildings
Dodging taxis and street performers
Where is the excitement
(of life in suburbia)
Connection with strangers
(isolation - a world apart)
I'm taking back to my body
But I'm leaving my heart where it belongs
Someday I'll make it back to New York City
Back where I belong
So many people lost in the world
But I know where I belong
And I drew a map of how to get there
With 2 stickers that say "you are here"
One in that small town
Where my body lies in wait
And one inthe heart of the ciry
Where my heart is dreaming
I'm taking back to my body
But I'm leaving my heart where it belongs
Someday I'll make it back to New York City
Back where I belong
For now my little bit of being
Lives without its passion and determination
The world is waitng in the city
To see what that soul is made of
I'll always be a city girl
No matter where I am
And if I can't go to the city
I'll bring the city to me
--9/15/04
By the way - I updated my website. http://groups.msn.com/darkmoon319
New York City -
COLLINS
Uh-huh
ANGEL
Center of the universe
COLLINS
Sing it girl -
ANGEL
It's a comfort to know
When you're singing the hit-the-road blues
That anywhere else you could possible go
Afer New York would be a pleasure cruise
~*~"Santa Fe" RENT
Ironic how completely opposite that is from the poem I'm about to post. I wrote it on the plane on the way home from NY.
Neverland
Started out in a small town
Discovered the city when I was only 5 years old
And from my first glimpse of skyscrapers
I knew where I belonged
I'm taking back to my body
But I'm leaving my heart where it belongs
Someday I'll make it back to New York City
Back where I belong
Don't belong in that small town
I suffocate in the open fields
Can only breathe between the buildings
Dodging taxis and street performers
Where is the excitement
(of life in suburbia)
Connection with strangers
(isolation - a world apart)
I'm taking back to my body
But I'm leaving my heart where it belongs
Someday I'll make it back to New York City
Back where I belong
So many people lost in the world
But I know where I belong
And I drew a map of how to get there
With 2 stickers that say "you are here"
One in that small town
Where my body lies in wait
And one inthe heart of the ciry
Where my heart is dreaming
I'm taking back to my body
But I'm leaving my heart where it belongs
Someday I'll make it back to New York City
Back where I belong
For now my little bit of being
Lives without its passion and determination
The world is waitng in the city
To see what that soul is made of
I'll always be a city girl
No matter where I am
And if I can't go to the city
I'll bring the city to me
--9/15/04
By the way - I updated my website. http://groups.msn.com/darkmoon319
On the Street
THREE HOMELESS PEOPLE
Christmas bells are ringing
Christmas bells are ringing
Christmas bells are ringing -
Out of town
Santa Fe
SQUEEGEEMAN
Honest living man!
HOMELESS PERSON
Evening, officers
MARK
Smile for Ted Koppel, Officer Martin!
HOMELESS PERSON
And a Merry Christmas to your family
POLICE OFFICERS
Right!
BLANKET PERSON
Who the fuck do you think you are?
I don't need no goddamn help
From some bleeding heart cameraman
My life's not for you to
Make a name for yourself on
ANGEL
Easy sugar, easy
He was just trying to -
BLANKET PERSON
Just trying to use me to kill his guilt
It's not hat kind of movie honey,
Let's go - this lot is full of
Motherfucking artists
Het artist
You gotta dollar?
Huh. I thought not
~*~"On the Street" RENT
There's no good way to do that song, so I stuck the whole thing on there. Oh well. One more song totally taken care of, I guess.
I would like to begin today's post with a quote - something I found extremely wise and quite interesting. Let's see what you can make of it. I read to you from "The Time of Your Life - A Comedy in Three Acts" by William Saroyan.
JOE: ...I'm a student. I study all things. All. All. And when my study reveals something of beauty in a place or in a person where by all rights only ugliness or death should be revealed, then I know how full of goodness life is. And that's a good thing to know. That's a truth I shall always seek to verify.
It's most eloquent, and I find it rather practical to think about, for any teenage perspective. Of my friends, at least 80% of them tend to have a negative outlook on life, or on most of life. Until recently, I would have been part of that. (I'll get to that in a moment.) Now this guy Joe here, he's living in San Fransisco in 1939. And the people he's around, they don't have a lot of money. Joe, he's got some money. Don't really know why, beacause he's a loafer who never does anything, but he's got money. And he's quite benevolent, if not a little off-kelter abour spending it. The point is though, that even though he's living in the throes of WW II and what surrounds him is depression, he finds a way to push away the shade and allow the sun to shine so the flowers may grow. So perhaps at first glance the world Joe lives in is a shithole that no one would wish upon any man. Such as people say no amount of money would ever get them to relive their teen years. Well Joe found beauty in his world by studying it. Perhaps all we need to do is look a little more closely at just what is going on around us.
So there's my soap-box speech for the day. Although I suppose I should explain what I said about being a part of negativity until recently. I'm not going to talk about the negative paryt. There's nothing to say there. But what leaves people wondering is why I am not nearly as depressed as I used to be. Well I'll give you a plain and simple answe which, strange as it might sound after it is said, is the truth. I saw Rent.
In case I forgot to say (I know I never did get the synopsis up here, but anyway.), RENT has several characters in it who have AIDS. The whole theme of the play is celebrating life in the face of death. And Angel (*tear*), who has the most advanced AIDS, is turning every day into a party, not thinking about dying, and being completely and utterly happy with who (s)he is. (S)he has am amazing loving spirit, and as I watched the play and everyone in it, I thought, 'What the hell am I doing? Why am I so fucking depressed all the time, and not just taking care of myself and not worrying about anything else?' I figured out that even though I may seem really self-centered on the outside, inside I don't spend enough time thinking about myself because I'm always trying to solve other people's problems. So when I got back home, I started doing yoga. I did a LOT of writing. I listened to even more music than I used to. I stayed up late some nights, just to think. I watched what I was eating and taking in to my body. And I'm still doing all that, and I've been feeling better, I think. The other thing I realized is that I would love to be on Broadway. I used to always think I would do movies and that would be my thing; that I wouldn't like live performing as much. But then I thought about how much fun I had with "Go Ask Alice" and what a great experience it was to meet Jai after the show, and I decided. I want to do Broadway. I want to connect with people on a level that you can't connect on in movies. Something about being live just changes everything. And meeting fans afterwards... there's nothing more gratifying. I mean, not that I had "fans" at my play, but all the people who came up to me and told me what a great job I did... people I didn't even know! Some people who were there just to see the show, who weren't related to anyone in the cast. And I was just blown away. People I did know were amazed... I scared some people (because of the ending). So I decided I wanted to do Broadway. That's extremely physically demanding though. Therefore I immediately began to care more for myself. And I still am, and I'm happy with me. And I'm making myself, and a place for myself, and that being the central matter.
But in case all that sounded too lifetime movie for you, and I was being a little too self-congraulatory and a bit indulgent, let me just point out that I am going on a 5K AIDS walk on Saturday with the GSA. There's a damn good cause. And I'm glad I'm going.
Wow. This is a long post. And it's long because there is a lot of writing, not because I had to hit enter a bunch of times when posting songs. So I'll let you all drink this in and post my poem sparately.
Christmas bells are ringing
Christmas bells are ringing
Christmas bells are ringing -
Out of town
Santa Fe
SQUEEGEEMAN
Honest living man!
HOMELESS PERSON
Evening, officers
MARK
Smile for Ted Koppel, Officer Martin!
HOMELESS PERSON
And a Merry Christmas to your family
POLICE OFFICERS
Right!
BLANKET PERSON
Who the fuck do you think you are?
I don't need no goddamn help
From some bleeding heart cameraman
My life's not for you to
Make a name for yourself on
ANGEL
Easy sugar, easy
He was just trying to -
BLANKET PERSON
Just trying to use me to kill his guilt
It's not hat kind of movie honey,
Let's go - this lot is full of
Motherfucking artists
Het artist
You gotta dollar?
Huh. I thought not
~*~"On the Street" RENT
There's no good way to do that song, so I stuck the whole thing on there. Oh well. One more song totally taken care of, I guess.
I would like to begin today's post with a quote - something I found extremely wise and quite interesting. Let's see what you can make of it. I read to you from "The Time of Your Life - A Comedy in Three Acts" by William Saroyan.
JOE: ...I'm a student. I study all things. All. All. And when my study reveals something of beauty in a place or in a person where by all rights only ugliness or death should be revealed, then I know how full of goodness life is. And that's a good thing to know. That's a truth I shall always seek to verify.
It's most eloquent, and I find it rather practical to think about, for any teenage perspective. Of my friends, at least 80% of them tend to have a negative outlook on life, or on most of life. Until recently, I would have been part of that. (I'll get to that in a moment.) Now this guy Joe here, he's living in San Fransisco in 1939. And the people he's around, they don't have a lot of money. Joe, he's got some money. Don't really know why, beacause he's a loafer who never does anything, but he's got money. And he's quite benevolent, if not a little off-kelter abour spending it. The point is though, that even though he's living in the throes of WW II and what surrounds him is depression, he finds a way to push away the shade and allow the sun to shine so the flowers may grow. So perhaps at first glance the world Joe lives in is a shithole that no one would wish upon any man. Such as people say no amount of money would ever get them to relive their teen years. Well Joe found beauty in his world by studying it. Perhaps all we need to do is look a little more closely at just what is going on around us.
So there's my soap-box speech for the day. Although I suppose I should explain what I said about being a part of negativity until recently. I'm not going to talk about the negative paryt. There's nothing to say there. But what leaves people wondering is why I am not nearly as depressed as I used to be. Well I'll give you a plain and simple answe which, strange as it might sound after it is said, is the truth. I saw Rent.
In case I forgot to say (I know I never did get the synopsis up here, but anyway.), RENT has several characters in it who have AIDS. The whole theme of the play is celebrating life in the face of death. And Angel (*tear*), who has the most advanced AIDS, is turning every day into a party, not thinking about dying, and being completely and utterly happy with who (s)he is. (S)he has am amazing loving spirit, and as I watched the play and everyone in it, I thought, 'What the hell am I doing? Why am I so fucking depressed all the time, and not just taking care of myself and not worrying about anything else?' I figured out that even though I may seem really self-centered on the outside, inside I don't spend enough time thinking about myself because I'm always trying to solve other people's problems. So when I got back home, I started doing yoga. I did a LOT of writing. I listened to even more music than I used to. I stayed up late some nights, just to think. I watched what I was eating and taking in to my body. And I'm still doing all that, and I've been feeling better, I think. The other thing I realized is that I would love to be on Broadway. I used to always think I would do movies and that would be my thing; that I wouldn't like live performing as much. But then I thought about how much fun I had with "Go Ask Alice" and what a great experience it was to meet Jai after the show, and I decided. I want to do Broadway. I want to connect with people on a level that you can't connect on in movies. Something about being live just changes everything. And meeting fans afterwards... there's nothing more gratifying. I mean, not that I had "fans" at my play, but all the people who came up to me and told me what a great job I did... people I didn't even know! Some people who were there just to see the show, who weren't related to anyone in the cast. And I was just blown away. People I did know were amazed... I scared some people (because of the ending). So I decided I wanted to do Broadway. That's extremely physically demanding though. Therefore I immediately began to care more for myself. And I still am, and I'm happy with me. And I'm making myself, and a place for myself, and that being the central matter.
But in case all that sounded too lifetime movie for you, and I was being a little too self-congraulatory and a bit indulgent, let me just point out that I am going on a 5K AIDS walk on Saturday with the GSA. There's a damn good cause. And I'm glad I'm going.
Wow. This is a long post. And it's long because there is a lot of writing, not because I had to hit enter a bunch of times when posting songs. So I'll let you all drink this in and post my poem sparately.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Another Day
ROGER
Excuse me if I'm off track
But if you're so wise
Then tell me - why do you need smack?
Take your needle
Take your fancy prayer
And don't forget
Get the moonlight out of your hair
Long ago you might've lit up my heart
But now the fire's dead - ain't never gonna start
~*~"Another Day" RENT
Wow... Amazing movie. I have a few things I want to say though before I get to that. I got to thinking on the ride home, so now I just want to get that out into the world. I'm not going to explain right now. Ask questions - then I'll explain.
Sometimes it's good to just listen - it gets you thinking.
Don't be afraid to be who you are.
Be persistent, even if you think you will embaress yourself around a staff person or something. Chances are, you will never see them again.
Always be working toward what you want to do. You'll get there some day.
Find yourself, and then draw yourself a map so you don't get lost. If people turn into obstacles and get in your way, don't let them tell you what to do or where to go. You know where you are.
So anyway. That's just what I was thinking about. Now I'm going to watch Queer Eye, so I will continue my post in a moment.
Back. Okay um... What was I gonna say? I don't remember anymore... Oh yeah. So the movie.
The movie was fantastic. Absolutely amazing. I mean, Johnny was hot as always, but it was a good movie. That doesn't always happen. (Secret Window, for example) Yeah. Finding Neverland was just really great. I cried at the end! It was sad. Then the screenwriter answered a few questions, and that was pretty cool. There was an afterparty thingy that we went to, but didn't stay too long. It was a fun atmosphere. Very Hollywood-esque I think.
But now I'm going to discuss the main point of the movie. When we get to the next commercial. Ok. So as I was almost saying. So the whole movie focuses on imagination, and growing up. But not just kids NOT growing up, more about everyone growing up. And I kind of just got to thinking about it... Did I grow up too fast? I don't know. I mean, all the adults I meet always say I'm mature for my age. But what does that mean? Did I miss out on something that everyone else got? I enjoyed my childhood... And I got it all, right? I mean, how do I know? Am I trying to be too much, too soon?
And imagination... Creativity can be anyone's salvation. So I was thinking about J.M. Barrie's imagination, and how he spent so much time writing, and that it was just what he wanted to write. And on the car ride home I decided "That's it - I'm gonna do my own thing. Totally 100% me. Because why not?" So I'm gonna be done spending time with people I don't really like. And if that means I end up with 2 friends, fine. But I'm going to spend my time with drama, dance, and writing. I'm going to keep up my poetry, and write the new story I've had rattling around in my brain. And it will be mine... just mine. And no one will see it until I have a first draft finished. Perhaps I'll end up a teenage hermit. Tough luck. You don't like it? I don't care anymore. I never really did, but somehow I still ended up hanging out with people who didn't really know me. So now that's over.
Wow... I started this at like 11:45 and now it's 1:15. It took an hour and a half... cause I'm watching Queer Eye!
Excuse me if I'm off track
But if you're so wise
Then tell me - why do you need smack?
Take your needle
Take your fancy prayer
And don't forget
Get the moonlight out of your hair
Long ago you might've lit up my heart
But now the fire's dead - ain't never gonna start
~*~"Another Day" RENT
Wow... Amazing movie. I have a few things I want to say though before I get to that. I got to thinking on the ride home, so now I just want to get that out into the world. I'm not going to explain right now. Ask questions - then I'll explain.
Sometimes it's good to just listen - it gets you thinking.
Don't be afraid to be who you are.
Be persistent, even if you think you will embaress yourself around a staff person or something. Chances are, you will never see them again.
Always be working toward what you want to do. You'll get there some day.
Find yourself, and then draw yourself a map so you don't get lost. If people turn into obstacles and get in your way, don't let them tell you what to do or where to go. You know where you are.
So anyway. That's just what I was thinking about. Now I'm going to watch Queer Eye, so I will continue my post in a moment.
Back. Okay um... What was I gonna say? I don't remember anymore... Oh yeah. So the movie.
The movie was fantastic. Absolutely amazing. I mean, Johnny was hot as always, but it was a good movie. That doesn't always happen. (Secret Window, for example) Yeah. Finding Neverland was just really great. I cried at the end! It was sad. Then the screenwriter answered a few questions, and that was pretty cool. There was an afterparty thingy that we went to, but didn't stay too long. It was a fun atmosphere. Very Hollywood-esque I think.
But now I'm going to discuss the main point of the movie. When we get to the next commercial. Ok. So as I was almost saying. So the whole movie focuses on imagination, and growing up. But not just kids NOT growing up, more about everyone growing up. And I kind of just got to thinking about it... Did I grow up too fast? I don't know. I mean, all the adults I meet always say I'm mature for my age. But what does that mean? Did I miss out on something that everyone else got? I enjoyed my childhood... And I got it all, right? I mean, how do I know? Am I trying to be too much, too soon?
And imagination... Creativity can be anyone's salvation. So I was thinking about J.M. Barrie's imagination, and how he spent so much time writing, and that it was just what he wanted to write. And on the car ride home I decided "That's it - I'm gonna do my own thing. Totally 100% me. Because why not?" So I'm gonna be done spending time with people I don't really like. And if that means I end up with 2 friends, fine. But I'm going to spend my time with drama, dance, and writing. I'm going to keep up my poetry, and write the new story I've had rattling around in my brain. And it will be mine... just mine. And no one will see it until I have a first draft finished. Perhaps I'll end up a teenage hermit. Tough luck. You don't like it? I don't care anymore. I never really did, but somehow I still ended up hanging out with people who didn't really know me. So now that's over.
Wow... I started this at like 11:45 and now it's 1:15. It took an hour and a half... cause I'm watching Queer Eye!
Will I?
STEVE
Will I lose my dignity?
Will someone care?
Will I wake tomorrow from
This nightmare?
~*~"Will I?" RENT
I use the same lyrics as the first time because that's literally the only lyrics in the song. If you watch the show, it's very intersting to see, and kind of interesting on the CD if you're in the right mood, but the lyrics are extremely repetitive - what do you expecet? You have 4 groups singing the song in a round.
Anyway. So I fly back today. :( Back to join the real world. Or maybe not. I don't have to leave NY just because I fly somewhere else. Maybe the plane is taking me up into the air where all the tall buildings are, and then it will put me down right back where I got up. And though it may seem I have returned to you, perhaps you are wrong, and you have come to visit me in New York.
So now that you all think I am a raving lunatic, I forgot what I was going to say in the first place. Crap. Um... Okay. Well I really can't remember right now. So I'll post again when I do.
Will I lose my dignity?
Will someone care?
Will I wake tomorrow from
This nightmare?
~*~"Will I?" RENT
I use the same lyrics as the first time because that's literally the only lyrics in the song. If you watch the show, it's very intersting to see, and kind of interesting on the CD if you're in the right mood, but the lyrics are extremely repetitive - what do you expecet? You have 4 groups singing the song in a round.
Anyway. So I fly back today. :( Back to join the real world. Or maybe not. I don't have to leave NY just because I fly somewhere else. Maybe the plane is taking me up into the air where all the tall buildings are, and then it will put me down right back where I got up. And though it may seem I have returned to you, perhaps you are wrong, and you have come to visit me in New York.
So now that you all think I am a raving lunatic, I forgot what I was going to say in the first place. Crap. Um... Okay. Well I really can't remember right now. So I'll post again when I do.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Out Tonight
MIMI
In the evening I've got to roam
Can't sleep in the city of neon and chrome
Feels too damn much like home
When the Spanish babies cry
So let's find a bar
So dark we forget who we are
And all the scars of the nevers and maybes die
~*~"Out Tonight" RENT
An appropriate song, as a matter of fact. I will be out tonight. WOO! Finally Tuesday is here! And I will be going to Finding Neverland! Sooo excited. Of course I will tell all about it when I get back. But that will probably be around midnight or something I think. Not like I'd be going to bed then or anything. Haha I just realized I'm actually posting in the AM and it's not like, 3 in the morning or something. It's a respectable 11 o'clock. I'm so strange...
Anyway. I don't actually have a whole lot to talk about. But I was thinking about what song would be coming up next in my blog, and I figured as long as it was so fitting, I might as well post something.
Hey Queer Eye is on tonight! 4 times. And Molly is sposed to be taping it for me. She actually remembered on Saturday, maybe she'll remember today too. That would make me even more happy. Thing are going my way today guys. Something in the stars likes me... We'll see how long that lasts. Actually, I don't need to look to the stars... Leslie's here! She loves me! She's the one taking me to all these things... Woot woot for Leslie! YAY! Okay I'm in a kind of hyper mode... I know that will mean lots of blabbering on about nothing. So I think I'll stop right here before this post gets too ridiculous. {badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger mushroom mushroom} Oops. Too late.
In the evening I've got to roam
Can't sleep in the city of neon and chrome
Feels too damn much like home
When the Spanish babies cry
So let's find a bar
So dark we forget who we are
And all the scars of the nevers and maybes die
~*~"Out Tonight" RENT
An appropriate song, as a matter of fact. I will be out tonight. WOO! Finally Tuesday is here! And I will be going to Finding Neverland! Sooo excited. Of course I will tell all about it when I get back. But that will probably be around midnight or something I think. Not like I'd be going to bed then or anything. Haha I just realized I'm actually posting in the AM and it's not like, 3 in the morning or something. It's a respectable 11 o'clock. I'm so strange...
Anyway. I don't actually have a whole lot to talk about. But I was thinking about what song would be coming up next in my blog, and I figured as long as it was so fitting, I might as well post something.
Hey Queer Eye is on tonight! 4 times. And Molly is sposed to be taping it for me. She actually remembered on Saturday, maybe she'll remember today too. That would make me even more happy. Thing are going my way today guys. Something in the stars likes me... We'll see how long that lasts. Actually, I don't need to look to the stars... Leslie's here! She loves me! She's the one taking me to all these things... Woot woot for Leslie! YAY! Okay I'm in a kind of hyper mode... I know that will mean lots of blabbering on about nothing. So I think I'll stop right here before this post gets too ridiculous. {badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger mushroom mushroom} Oops. Too late.
Life Support
GORDON
...Look, I find some of what you teach suspect
Because I'm used to relying on intellect
But I try to open up to what i don't know
GORDON & ROGER
Because reason says I should have died
3 years ago
~*~"Life Support" RENT
In about 12 hours I'll be on my way downtown to see Finding Neverland! Woot woot!
Okay so I tried to go to bed, but then this hit me so now I have to write it down. I was surfing around tonight (after watching BLOW) and was mostly at a Jai site and a Johnny site (no surprises there). And I got to thinking. Johnny only does movies that mean something to him. All of his stuff has a message. It's all important, and he surrounds himself with people he cares about, who are really interesting diverse people.
Jai was in RENT. And gushy as this may be, Rent DOES have an amazing message... I wish I could be a part of something that is as important as those things... Johnny's movies... Rent is changing the world, if only in the most subtle ways. From things I've read in the last month, so many people's views about things have changed since they saw the show... And that's not the only thing. And so I was lying here thinking, and I was just like, 'how can I be a part of something as amazing as that?'
I've realized now that I would really love doing Broadway. The actors all come out after the show and sign autographs and take pictures, and really get to connect with the fans. I would love that. That isn't the main point though - it's about being able to connect with people on that level... And know you're really doing something that means something. Jonathan Larson once said "It's not how long you're here, it's what you do while you're here." Well I'd rather die in 5 years but have changed something than to live to be 85 and have sat on my ass doing nothing.
I'd die tomorrow if I knew I would be changing something for the better that would help the world... Every day I try to think of something small I can do to help. It doesn't change the world, but it may brighten someone's day. And that's what I have to start with. But if I ever get to Broadway, and to Hollywood, I'll be making my own choices for real - and for something important. The only reason I want to be famous is to be able to spread a message. I don't want to make movies to become famous - I want to make movies because I love to act. Being famous would be a bonus. But if I end up like Johnny - making 30 movies before anyone really notices - I couldn't give a damn, as long as I'm doing what I want. And then, when people finally find me, I'll have something to say.
...Look, I find some of what you teach suspect
Because I'm used to relying on intellect
But I try to open up to what i don't know
GORDON & ROGER
Because reason says I should have died
3 years ago
~*~"Life Support" RENT
In about 12 hours I'll be on my way downtown to see Finding Neverland! Woot woot!
Okay so I tried to go to bed, but then this hit me so now I have to write it down. I was surfing around tonight (after watching BLOW) and was mostly at a Jai site and a Johnny site (no surprises there). And I got to thinking. Johnny only does movies that mean something to him. All of his stuff has a message. It's all important, and he surrounds himself with people he cares about, who are really interesting diverse people.
Jai was in RENT. And gushy as this may be, Rent DOES have an amazing message... I wish I could be a part of something that is as important as those things... Johnny's movies... Rent is changing the world, if only in the most subtle ways. From things I've read in the last month, so many people's views about things have changed since they saw the show... And that's not the only thing. And so I was lying here thinking, and I was just like, 'how can I be a part of something as amazing as that?'
I've realized now that I would really love doing Broadway. The actors all come out after the show and sign autographs and take pictures, and really get to connect with the fans. I would love that. That isn't the main point though - it's about being able to connect with people on that level... And know you're really doing something that means something. Jonathan Larson once said "It's not how long you're here, it's what you do while you're here." Well I'd rather die in 5 years but have changed something than to live to be 85 and have sat on my ass doing nothing.
I'd die tomorrow if I knew I would be changing something for the better that would help the world... Every day I try to think of something small I can do to help. It doesn't change the world, but it may brighten someone's day. And that's what I have to start with. But if I ever get to Broadway, and to Hollywood, I'll be making my own choices for real - and for something important. The only reason I want to be famous is to be able to spread a message. I don't want to make movies to become famous - I want to make movies because I love to act. Being famous would be a bonus. But if I end up like Johnny - making 30 movies before anyone really notices - I couldn't give a damn, as long as I'm doing what I want. And then, when people finally find me, I'll have something to say.
Monday, September 13, 2004
Tango: Maureen
BOTH
When you're dancing her dance
You don't stand a chance
Her grip of romance
Makes you fall
MARK
So you think "Might as well..."
JOANNE
"Dance a tango to hell"
BOTH
"At least I'll have tangoed at all" ...
~*~"Tango: Maureen" RENT
Taking a break from my extremely tedious homework. I just did 2 sets of problems for geometry. I still have one more of those to go, and an essay to write. Then for bio I have all those worksheets Morain gave me. I haven't even looked at those yet... I don't think I want to. But eventually I will. Probably in a little bit, because I'm tired of geometry for now. Maybe I'll tackle some bio when I'm done, and then set out on that essay after i eat lunch... Or breakfast. Whatever meal I'm at right now. I don't eat like a normal person. Blah.
So anyway. Dunno what time I got to sleep last night... was up pretty late talking to Lonzo. Round 3 in the morning here, I think. Then I was on for a little bit longer with some e-mail. But I slept in till about 10... that was so nice. And I'm happy cause my back feels all better... I've decided it's all my stupid matress' fault in the first place. Jay's bed is comfy. Mine is a piece of crap. Haha. What else is new. But anyway.
I'm in a good mood right now. Last night I got kinda lonely... I was missing my Lonzo. Feeling better now. Still miss him, but not lonely. Maybe it was just that I was up at 3 am or something. I dunno. My mind is kinda fucked up... WEEE!!! Sudden hyper burst. I probably need food. But I'm not hungry. I'm bored. And I don't wanna do my work. Hum. But I kind of should... But I don't wanna... God damn... I'm talking to myself. Somebody stop me! Hey maybe Queer Eye will be on today. Must check the TV guide now to find out. Perhaps I will report back later.
When you're dancing her dance
You don't stand a chance
Her grip of romance
Makes you fall
MARK
So you think "Might as well..."
JOANNE
"Dance a tango to hell"
BOTH
"At least I'll have tangoed at all" ...
~*~"Tango: Maureen" RENT
Taking a break from my extremely tedious homework. I just did 2 sets of problems for geometry. I still have one more of those to go, and an essay to write. Then for bio I have all those worksheets Morain gave me. I haven't even looked at those yet... I don't think I want to. But eventually I will. Probably in a little bit, because I'm tired of geometry for now. Maybe I'll tackle some bio when I'm done, and then set out on that essay after i eat lunch... Or breakfast. Whatever meal I'm at right now. I don't eat like a normal person. Blah.
So anyway. Dunno what time I got to sleep last night... was up pretty late talking to Lonzo. Round 3 in the morning here, I think. Then I was on for a little bit longer with some e-mail. But I slept in till about 10... that was so nice. And I'm happy cause my back feels all better... I've decided it's all my stupid matress' fault in the first place. Jay's bed is comfy. Mine is a piece of crap. Haha. What else is new. But anyway.
I'm in a good mood right now. Last night I got kinda lonely... I was missing my Lonzo. Feeling better now. Still miss him, but not lonely. Maybe it was just that I was up at 3 am or something. I dunno. My mind is kinda fucked up... WEEE!!! Sudden hyper burst. I probably need food. But I'm not hungry. I'm bored. And I don't wanna do my work. Hum. But I kind of should... But I don't wanna... God damn... I'm talking to myself. Somebody stop me! Hey maybe Queer Eye will be on today. Must check the TV guide now to find out. Perhaps I will report back later.
You'll See
ANGEL
... You'll see boys
MARK & ROGER
We'll see boys
ROGER
Let it be boys
COLLINS
I like boys
ANGEL
Boys like me
ALL
We'll see
~*~"You'll See" RENT
Ah the musings of... well, me.
I dunno. I've just been thinking about things. And it's interesting. I was talking to Ian earlier. And I started thinking about Alonzo and about relationships. What is a relationship really? What is supposed to happen when 2 people start "going out"? It's something you should really think about. I mean, I know some people who start going out, and they spend lots of time together, and kiss and stuff all the time. Then I know other people who go out, and you would have no idea if they didn't tell you. Things are no different, and that's when I start to wonder. Shouldn't going out be more than just saying you're going out? It should be because you really care about someone, and want to be something more with them. So if you eliminate saying it, and you just start going out with someone, kind of based on how you act, how are you acting? What are you doing? Someone explain this to me, because I'm kind of confused about all of this. Maybe I'm just naieve. I don't know.
It's my bi-polarness striking agian. I was in a great mood a while ago, and now i'm feeling kind of wierd... I dunno.
... You'll see boys
MARK & ROGER
We'll see boys
ROGER
Let it be boys
COLLINS
I like boys
ANGEL
Boys like me
ALL
We'll see
~*~"You'll See" RENT
Ah the musings of... well, me.
I dunno. I've just been thinking about things. And it's interesting. I was talking to Ian earlier. And I started thinking about Alonzo and about relationships. What is a relationship really? What is supposed to happen when 2 people start "going out"? It's something you should really think about. I mean, I know some people who start going out, and they spend lots of time together, and kiss and stuff all the time. Then I know other people who go out, and you would have no idea if they didn't tell you. Things are no different, and that's when I start to wonder. Shouldn't going out be more than just saying you're going out? It should be because you really care about someone, and want to be something more with them. So if you eliminate saying it, and you just start going out with someone, kind of based on how you act, how are you acting? What are you doing? Someone explain this to me, because I'm kind of confused about all of this. Maybe I'm just naieve. I don't know.
It's my bi-polarness striking agian. I was in a great mood a while ago, and now i'm feeling kind of wierd... I dunno.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Today 4 U
ANGEL
And who could fortell
That it would go so well
But sure as I am here
That dog is now in doggie hell.
~*~"Today 4 U" RENT
How am I supposed to pick one part of that song? It's so fun! But anyway. I must tell you all about my day. I can sum in up by pasting an e-mail I sent earlier to Molly. Warning: it is long.
Muwahahahaha! I am in the winner's circle today. You're going to hate me but frankly I don't give a damn because right now I am so so so so so so so so so happy.
Leslie and I went downtown, to see if we could get the $20 rush tickets to see RENT and we figured if we didn't get those we would just go do something else. So we drive down there and there's a shit load of traffic half the way. So instead of getting there 2 hours ahead of time we get there a little over an hour before. And the rush ticket thing is over. But (you knew the but was coming, or I wouldn't be telling you this story.) the ticket guy told us about their special sunday deal where tickets in the mezz (mezzanine - upper level) are half price. So that meant they were each about $50 or something, I think. I couldn't quite hear him through the window. But Leslie just looked at me, and then she went for it. So we got the tickets and left, and walked over to where the theatre is that we're going to on Tuesday. We tried to get our tickets early, so we wouldn't have to stand in line then. But they didn't have them. So we walked back to Nederlander and waited to be let in. And while we're just sitting there, these 3 guys in RENT shirts walk by. And I'm like, "hey, there's some RENT groupies" and then i looked closer. Correction: not groupies, CAST MEMBERS. I didn't notice the other 2, but Jeremy Kushiener (Roger) walked right across the street, through the line of people, and into the theatre. And I was kind of just like, what the FUCK? How do they just walk right through like that? I mean, wearing RENT shirts and everything? It was wierd.
But I saw the show again, and it was amazing, again. We went to wait outside for autographs, and I almost missed Jeremy again, because he walked right out the front door, leaving like as fast as he could. Then some person ran and stopped him, so I got over there and got him, and Leslie got a picture or 2, so I can show you. Then I got Krystal Washington (Mimi) cause she walked out with him, and I think I got her picture too. Then we went back to wait by the door where they were supposed to come out. And out another door came some ensemble people, and the woman who played Joanne. I was gonna get her, but she looked like she was on a mission, so we all left her alone. (People are still congregated around this gate thing, waiting for Drew Lachey to come out.) I look behind me, to see if anyone is coming out another door, and Destan Owens (Collins) is over there, so I run over there and get him, and then I ask if I can have one for my aunt too, and as he's taking hers, he says no, so i'm like, oh, i see how it is. He's like, yeah, that's the way we roll. Cool guy. Really fun. Those were the only 3 I got. We waited to see if Justin Johnston (Angel) would come out, but he didn't. And then this crew guy comes out, and he's like "he's gone" (meaning Drew Lachey, not Justin) and I was ready to laugh. The crew guy didn't even know where he was. I was like "he just up and left." It was so funny. I guess it would have been sad if I had been waiting for him. But instead it was funny. And then I looked across the street, and I see Destan walking away. Normal as any guy. I mean, if you saw him on the street, you would never know. It was wierd! He was so cute, with his backpack, and earbuds in his ears (for an MP3 or IPOD I'm assuming), just walking down the street, like an anyguy. I couldn't get over it, how it wasn't a big deal. I dunno. Maybe it's just me. *shrug* The whole experience was just a little strange. I mean Jai was awesome. He was out like 5 minutes after the show was over, all smiles and ready to take pictures and sign autographs, and stuff. I don't know about the rest of the cast, cause we left after that. But these people were all just totally normal people walking down the street. Jai had more of the effect I was expecting... all the autographs and then a limo. These people dodged everyone and walked away. Strange...
And who could fortell
That it would go so well
But sure as I am here
That dog is now in doggie hell.
~*~"Today 4 U" RENT
How am I supposed to pick one part of that song? It's so fun! But anyway. I must tell you all about my day. I can sum in up by pasting an e-mail I sent earlier to Molly. Warning: it is long.
Muwahahahaha! I am in the winner's circle today. You're going to hate me but frankly I don't give a damn because right now I am so so so so so so so so so happy.
Leslie and I went downtown, to see if we could get the $20 rush tickets to see RENT and we figured if we didn't get those we would just go do something else. So we drive down there and there's a shit load of traffic half the way. So instead of getting there 2 hours ahead of time we get there a little over an hour before. And the rush ticket thing is over. But (you knew the but was coming, or I wouldn't be telling you this story.) the ticket guy told us about their special sunday deal where tickets in the mezz (mezzanine - upper level) are half price. So that meant they were each about $50 or something, I think. I couldn't quite hear him through the window. But Leslie just looked at me, and then she went for it. So we got the tickets and left, and walked over to where the theatre is that we're going to on Tuesday. We tried to get our tickets early, so we wouldn't have to stand in line then. But they didn't have them. So we walked back to Nederlander and waited to be let in. And while we're just sitting there, these 3 guys in RENT shirts walk by. And I'm like, "hey, there's some RENT groupies" and then i looked closer. Correction: not groupies, CAST MEMBERS. I didn't notice the other 2, but Jeremy Kushiener (Roger) walked right across the street, through the line of people, and into the theatre. And I was kind of just like, what the FUCK? How do they just walk right through like that? I mean, wearing RENT shirts and everything? It was wierd.
But I saw the show again, and it was amazing, again. We went to wait outside for autographs, and I almost missed Jeremy again, because he walked right out the front door, leaving like as fast as he could. Then some person ran and stopped him, so I got over there and got him, and Leslie got a picture or 2, so I can show you. Then I got Krystal Washington (Mimi) cause she walked out with him, and I think I got her picture too. Then we went back to wait by the door where they were supposed to come out. And out another door came some ensemble people, and the woman who played Joanne. I was gonna get her, but she looked like she was on a mission, so we all left her alone. (People are still congregated around this gate thing, waiting for Drew Lachey to come out.) I look behind me, to see if anyone is coming out another door, and Destan Owens (Collins) is over there, so I run over there and get him, and then I ask if I can have one for my aunt too, and as he's taking hers, he says no, so i'm like, oh, i see how it is. He's like, yeah, that's the way we roll. Cool guy. Really fun. Those were the only 3 I got. We waited to see if Justin Johnston (Angel) would come out, but he didn't. And then this crew guy comes out, and he's like "he's gone" (meaning Drew Lachey, not Justin) and I was ready to laugh. The crew guy didn't even know where he was. I was like "he just up and left." It was so funny. I guess it would have been sad if I had been waiting for him. But instead it was funny. And then I looked across the street, and I see Destan walking away. Normal as any guy. I mean, if you saw him on the street, you would never know. It was wierd! He was so cute, with his backpack, and earbuds in his ears (for an MP3 or IPOD I'm assuming), just walking down the street, like an anyguy. I couldn't get over it, how it wasn't a big deal. I dunno. Maybe it's just me. *shrug* The whole experience was just a little strange. I mean Jai was awesome. He was out like 5 minutes after the show was over, all smiles and ready to take pictures and sign autographs, and stuff. I don't know about the rest of the cast, cause we left after that. But these people were all just totally normal people walking down the street. Jai had more of the effect I was expecting... all the autographs and then a limo. These people dodged everyone and walked away. Strange...
And that was a slightly shortened version. Anyway. So now you know all about my day. And in case you don't remember, I'm in NY right now! Having loads of fun... not doing my homework. :\ Oh well. I will do it tomorrow while Leslie is working and Alex is at school (haha - school) and Rich is at work. Right now I have people to talk to. Tomorrow at 11 in the morning, there will be noone. That's when I can do work. And watch Queer Eye, maybe. I'm using Bravo to the fullest while I'm here. Maybe I'll tape the new episode on Tuesday. I brought a tape with me... But anyway. So all's well here. Can't wait for Tuesday (Finding Neverland!!!). But for now I'm good - visions of RENT in my head. :)
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Voice Mail #3
MR. JEFFERSON
For Mommy's sake, Kitten, no Doc Martens this time
And wear a dress...
Oh and Kitten
Have a merry-
MRS. Jefferson
And a bra!
~*~ "Voice Mail #3" RENT
This is post 50!!! How time flies... (when compassion dies... oops. Rent song for later) Don't have a lot of time to write, but I wanted to post a poem I wrote yesterday.
Shadows
All the mysteries
The things you're hiding
That I'm not allowed to see
And I wonder what you're thinking
Behind those dark glasses
All the secrets
The things you won't let out
That I'm not allowed to know
And I wonder what you're doing
Behind those dark windows
All the whispers
The things you're disguising
That I'm not allowed to hear
And I wonder what you're saying
Behind those dark kisses.
--9/7/04
Lemme know what you think. And now on to other matters.
I have my sound back! HOORAY. 3 million cheers for my father. So now I can listen to music on the computer and watch videos and stuff. So happy! [insert incomprehensible sounds of happiness]
I leave for NY in 3 days! Even more happiness! WOOT! I'm not even about to start talking about what I'm missing out on in October though... Will... not... ruin... happy.... moment!
Went to GSA yesterday and turned in my AIDS walk form. I'm goin to Chicago! Woot woot! More good mood-ness.
There is another issue I should address, but this is also for another time. I'm not ruining my good mood for anything! Alonzo I do love you.
Holy shit - there is a huge ass bug flying around my head, so I am gonna get my happy self out of here... scary! Don't like bugs!
For Mommy's sake, Kitten, no Doc Martens this time
And wear a dress...
Oh and Kitten
Have a merry-
MRS. Jefferson
And a bra!
~*~ "Voice Mail #3" RENT
This is post 50!!! How time flies... (when compassion dies... oops. Rent song for later) Don't have a lot of time to write, but I wanted to post a poem I wrote yesterday.
Shadows
All the mysteries
The things you're hiding
That I'm not allowed to see
And I wonder what you're thinking
Behind those dark glasses
All the secrets
The things you won't let out
That I'm not allowed to know
And I wonder what you're doing
Behind those dark windows
All the whispers
The things you're disguising
That I'm not allowed to hear
And I wonder what you're saying
Behind those dark kisses.
--9/7/04
Lemme know what you think. And now on to other matters.
I have my sound back! HOORAY. 3 million cheers for my father. So now I can listen to music on the computer and watch videos and stuff. So happy! [insert incomprehensible sounds of happiness]
I leave for NY in 3 days! Even more happiness! WOOT! I'm not even about to start talking about what I'm missing out on in October though... Will... not... ruin... happy.... moment!
Went to GSA yesterday and turned in my AIDS walk form. I'm goin to Chicago! Woot woot! More good mood-ness.
There is another issue I should address, but this is also for another time. I'm not ruining my good mood for anything! Alonzo I do love you.
Holy shit - there is a huge ass bug flying around my head, so I am gonna get my happy self out of here... scary! Don't like bugs!
Monday, September 06, 2004
Light My Candle
MIMI
They say that I have the best ass below 14th street, is it true?
ROGER
What?
MIMI
You're staring again...
ROGER
Oh no... I mean you do... have a nice... I mean - you look familiar
~*~"Light My Candle" RENT
50 posts! Woot woot! It is exciting!
Anyway. Jake and Molly were over today. That was... interesting. Nah we had a good time. Jake and I did geometry homework and Molly and I did English homework. Then we went and walked in the field and messed with my crappy kite. I got it stuck in a tree and then Jake broke it. Then we were hungry and I wanted to make rice crispy treats, but we didn't have any rice crispies. Now some people would find this a rather significant problem, as they are one of only three ingredients. But we made them with cheerioes instead and it was pretty good. We had fun making them, anyway.
And now I know a secret! WEEEE! That's exciting. Nobody ever tells me secrets. Now I feel special. But anyway. I miss my Lonzo... I haven't seen him since Thursday when I had my little shindig.
Tonight mi familia y yo vamos al cine para ver la pelicula de Harry Potter 3. That movie makes me angry. So I'm not going to talk about it.
Actually, I still have a little bit of English to finish, so I should go do that now. Or not. But either way, I think I better go before I say something I'm not sposed to say. Adios!
They say that I have the best ass below 14th street, is it true?
ROGER
What?
MIMI
You're staring again...
ROGER
Oh no... I mean you do... have a nice... I mean - you look familiar
~*~"Light My Candle" RENT
50 posts! Woot woot! It is exciting!
Anyway. Jake and Molly were over today. That was... interesting. Nah we had a good time. Jake and I did geometry homework and Molly and I did English homework. Then we went and walked in the field and messed with my crappy kite. I got it stuck in a tree and then Jake broke it. Then we were hungry and I wanted to make rice crispy treats, but we didn't have any rice crispies. Now some people would find this a rather significant problem, as they are one of only three ingredients. But we made them with cheerioes instead and it was pretty good. We had fun making them, anyway.
And now I know a secret! WEEEE! That's exciting. Nobody ever tells me secrets. Now I feel special. But anyway. I miss my Lonzo... I haven't seen him since Thursday when I had my little shindig.
Tonight mi familia y yo vamos al cine para ver la pelicula de Harry Potter 3. That movie makes me angry. So I'm not going to talk about it.
Actually, I still have a little bit of English to finish, so I should go do that now. Or not. But either way, I think I better go before I say something I'm not sposed to say. Adios!
Sunday, September 05, 2004
One Song Glory
ROGER
One song
Glory
One song to leave behind (find)
One song
One last refrain
From the pretty boy front man
Who wasted opportunity
~*~"One Song Glory" RENT
I couldn't pick a favorite line, so that is just the beginning verse. That is such an awesome song! But anyway. I'm posting again because I actually want to talk about something for a minute.
I was thinking today... People always have conflicts. And usually those conflicts are always with the same person. You know why that is? It is because those problems are never really solved. People may feud, and then make up, but things are not really changed. Or one person may act as if nothing happened and the other person plays along, while really building up a rage inside that is someday going to explode. If both persons do not truly understand the problem, and the other's point of view, then nothing will really be settled. The problem will continue to occur wearing different masks, having little details change, but all the while it is still the same conflict you started out with in the beginning. Communication is often a huge problem. But you can't just say 'let's not go there' in order to avoid conflict for a moment. One moment of bliss can evoke a million moments of pain, sorrow, betrayal, jealousy, and other things you don't take time to think about. It may not be what you want, but perhaps you should just get your fight out in the open, get it really taken care of, and get it over with once and for all.
Of course that's just my opinion. Though I always have very strong opinions, and it's something I really want you all to think about. Don't be afraid to bring up tough stuff with your friends. It just may save your relationship - or get you out of something that's slowly tearing you apart.
One song
Glory
One song to leave behind (find)
One song
One last refrain
From the pretty boy front man
Who wasted opportunity
~*~"One Song Glory" RENT
I couldn't pick a favorite line, so that is just the beginning verse. That is such an awesome song! But anyway. I'm posting again because I actually want to talk about something for a minute.
I was thinking today... People always have conflicts. And usually those conflicts are always with the same person. You know why that is? It is because those problems are never really solved. People may feud, and then make up, but things are not really changed. Or one person may act as if nothing happened and the other person plays along, while really building up a rage inside that is someday going to explode. If both persons do not truly understand the problem, and the other's point of view, then nothing will really be settled. The problem will continue to occur wearing different masks, having little details change, but all the while it is still the same conflict you started out with in the beginning. Communication is often a huge problem. But you can't just say 'let's not go there' in order to avoid conflict for a moment. One moment of bliss can evoke a million moments of pain, sorrow, betrayal, jealousy, and other things you don't take time to think about. It may not be what you want, but perhaps you should just get your fight out in the open, get it really taken care of, and get it over with once and for all.
Of course that's just my opinion. Though I always have very strong opinions, and it's something I really want you all to think about. Don't be afraid to bring up tough stuff with your friends. It just may save your relationship - or get you out of something that's slowly tearing you apart.
Tune Up #3
MARK
I don't suppose you'd like to see Maureen's show in the lot tonight, or come to dinner
ROGER
Zoom in
On my empty wallet
MARK
Touche
~*~"Tune Up #3" RENT
And we move on... I really hate my RENT burn. It's a piece of shit. But anyway. On to other things.
I watched Secret Window today. And fell asleep on the couch. (Much like Johnny does, actually.) But don't blame it on the movie - I was trying to do my English homework. (Rather unsuccessfully, if you couldn't tell) Mmmmm... Johnny is very hot. Even if his dye job in that movie is really bad. I mean, I pay attention to that kind of stuff, so I notice that his hair has grown out and more of it is brown instead of blonde... but anyway. I continue to go on and on about things... hah.
Last night I went to a Chicago Fire game and it was actually kind of cool. Molly, Jimmy, y yo watched el futbol con Freddie Adu. It was funny. (Don't you all enjoy my Spanglish just oh so much?) No really, it was kind of cool. And on the bus both ways Molly and I sat backwards and listened to Rent on her ipod. (stupid technological parents)
Ahh. Yo necessito dos phone lines para hablo con jake y molly and be online.
I got to go. I have other blogs to post on, so on and so forth. La de da.
I don't suppose you'd like to see Maureen's show in the lot tonight, or come to dinner
ROGER
Zoom in
On my empty wallet
MARK
Touche
~*~"Tune Up #3" RENT
And we move on... I really hate my RENT burn. It's a piece of shit. But anyway. On to other things.
I watched Secret Window today. And fell asleep on the couch. (Much like Johnny does, actually.) But don't blame it on the movie - I was trying to do my English homework. (Rather unsuccessfully, if you couldn't tell) Mmmmm... Johnny is very hot. Even if his dye job in that movie is really bad. I mean, I pay attention to that kind of stuff, so I notice that his hair has grown out and more of it is brown instead of blonde... but anyway. I continue to go on and on about things... hah.
Last night I went to a Chicago Fire game and it was actually kind of cool. Molly, Jimmy, y yo watched el futbol con Freddie Adu. It was funny. (Don't you all enjoy my Spanglish just oh so much?) No really, it was kind of cool. And on the bus both ways Molly and I sat backwards and listened to Rent on her ipod. (stupid technological parents)
Ahh. Yo necessito dos phone lines para hablo con jake y molly and be online.
I got to go. I have other blogs to post on, so on and so forth. La de da.
Friday, September 03, 2004
You Okay Honey?
ANGEL
You okay honey?
COLLINS
I'm afraid so
ANGEL
They get any money?
COLLINS
No. Had none to get
But they perloined my coat
Well you missed a sleeve!
Thanks
ANGEL
Hell it's Christmas Eve
I'm Angel
COLLINS
Angel. Indeed
An angel of the first degree
Friends call me Collins - Tom Collins
Nice tree
ANGEL
Let's get a band-aid for your knee
I'll change
There's a life support meeting at 9:30
Yes this body provides a comfortable home
For the Aquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome
COLLINS
As does mine
ANGEL
Oh we'll get along fine
Get you a coat
Have a bite - make a night
I'm flush
COLLINS
But my friends are waiting -
ANGEL
You're cute when you blush
The more the merry ho ho ho
And I do not take 'no'
~*~"You Okay Honey?" RENT
Another song complete! Ta da! lol. I'm so lame I have nothing to do right now... It was a sad day. And a long story, which I now have time to tell because I am lame and have nothing to do.
So this morning I read my horoscope. (I was bored, okay?) It said today should be a 9. Now let me tell you something, right away. I don't have days that are 9s. Well, not really. I've had, like, 1 that I can think of in a really long time. And I'm going to let you tell me what day that was, because maybe you can think of something I can't. Anyway. So I will also tell you what I knew I was going to be doing today: going to the orthodontist, returning the RENT cd, and being around while Sam's friend Zach spends the night. Does that sound like a good day to you? No I didn't think so. And it wasn't.
I went to the orthodontist (missing music theatre and lunch, btw. well that's not true. I was in music theatre long enough at the end of class to know my group isn't doing anything for our project.) and we talked about which tooth he's having the dentist rip out for me. Doesn't that sound like fun? And after school today, I went to the library to return the RENT cd that was due yesterday. I didn't return it then because I was going to renew it. Who would have guessed that there would actually be a HOLD on it? Oh well, I just requested it again. But Hinsdale is the only place that has it, so whoever requested it will have it, then I will get it back! hehehe. For now I have to live with my shitty burned copy.
Anyway. I wish to discuss something I've been contemplating since I found out about getting my tooth pulled. As a people, we are ridiculously obsessed with appearances. And before you say 'no I'm not' I'm saying YOU ARE. Even if you dont' care what other people think (and in general I don't) you care what you look like. I care what I look like, because I like to express myself. Hell, maybe someday I'll wear a lime green and orange jumpsuit to school (okay... maybe not) just to be different. But seriously. I was thinking about how I would look a little wierd because I would be missing a tooth... Even though they'll close the gap (that'll take about 3-4 months), I'll have a wierd tooth alignment. And so then I though about what Johnny said once... He thinks it's good for things to be a little imperfect. He has all his teeth, but one of the ones on the bottom is crooked. And that's okay, and he still made it in Hollywood. No one will really notice right? My teeth will still be straight and I will still look pretty normal. And you know what? If Hollywood doesn't like it, then they can go... anyway. I decided I won't let it be a big deal. Although I'm still not happy, at least I'm comfortable with it now. I'll just bring along my RENT cd and listen to Toay 4 U the whole time, to keep me in a good mood. It never fails. Maybe I'll bring a Johnny picture too, as a little reminder...
Okay well that's my little philisophical lesson for the day. Although I'm in that kind of mood, so you may get more later. Another little episodeon which I must report, because I'm in a complaining mood as well.
I don't have friends that like to call me. No one calls me, except Lonzo sometimes. But no one else thinks of little old Z, sitting by herself at home. That happened today. (Okay, well it happens every day... but here's a story for ya.) I was sposed to spend the night at Molly's (to get away from my brother and his friend) and so she was sposed to call me when she got home. Did she? No. Had other plans, and didn't tell me. (Nor did she know about them till she got home, but that's nothing new either. I know a 4 year old who keeps better track of her schedule) So I call her around 4 and find out about these plans, and... grrr. I'm just tired of it. Can I have a few friends who think about me and invite me to do stuff that acutally works out? I'm just asking for like... I dunno. 3? I guess 1 would be a start. So now you all know...
And in case you can't tell I'm in a kind of pissy, depressed mood right now. Yay! That's always something to celebrate. Anyway. I think I've written enough for you all to take in for now. More later, maybe. *walks away, to no music at all*
You okay honey?
COLLINS
I'm afraid so
ANGEL
They get any money?
COLLINS
No. Had none to get
But they perloined my coat
Well you missed a sleeve!
Thanks
ANGEL
Hell it's Christmas Eve
I'm Angel
COLLINS
Angel. Indeed
An angel of the first degree
Friends call me Collins - Tom Collins
Nice tree
ANGEL
Let's get a band-aid for your knee
I'll change
There's a life support meeting at 9:30
Yes this body provides a comfortable home
For the Aquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome
COLLINS
As does mine
ANGEL
Oh we'll get along fine
Get you a coat
Have a bite - make a night
I'm flush
COLLINS
But my friends are waiting -
ANGEL
You're cute when you blush
The more the merry ho ho ho
And I do not take 'no'
~*~"You Okay Honey?" RENT
Another song complete! Ta da! lol. I'm so lame I have nothing to do right now... It was a sad day. And a long story, which I now have time to tell because I am lame and have nothing to do.
So this morning I read my horoscope. (I was bored, okay?) It said today should be a 9. Now let me tell you something, right away. I don't have days that are 9s. Well, not really. I've had, like, 1 that I can think of in a really long time. And I'm going to let you tell me what day that was, because maybe you can think of something I can't. Anyway. So I will also tell you what I knew I was going to be doing today: going to the orthodontist, returning the RENT cd, and being around while Sam's friend Zach spends the night. Does that sound like a good day to you? No I didn't think so. And it wasn't.
I went to the orthodontist (missing music theatre and lunch, btw. well that's not true. I was in music theatre long enough at the end of class to know my group isn't doing anything for our project.) and we talked about which tooth he's having the dentist rip out for me. Doesn't that sound like fun? And after school today, I went to the library to return the RENT cd that was due yesterday. I didn't return it then because I was going to renew it. Who would have guessed that there would actually be a HOLD on it? Oh well, I just requested it again. But Hinsdale is the only place that has it, so whoever requested it will have it, then I will get it back! hehehe. For now I have to live with my shitty burned copy.
Anyway. I wish to discuss something I've been contemplating since I found out about getting my tooth pulled. As a people, we are ridiculously obsessed with appearances. And before you say 'no I'm not' I'm saying YOU ARE. Even if you dont' care what other people think (and in general I don't) you care what you look like. I care what I look like, because I like to express myself. Hell, maybe someday I'll wear a lime green and orange jumpsuit to school (okay... maybe not) just to be different. But seriously. I was thinking about how I would look a little wierd because I would be missing a tooth... Even though they'll close the gap (that'll take about 3-4 months), I'll have a wierd tooth alignment. And so then I though about what Johnny said once... He thinks it's good for things to be a little imperfect. He has all his teeth, but one of the ones on the bottom is crooked. And that's okay, and he still made it in Hollywood. No one will really notice right? My teeth will still be straight and I will still look pretty normal. And you know what? If Hollywood doesn't like it, then they can go... anyway. I decided I won't let it be a big deal. Although I'm still not happy, at least I'm comfortable with it now. I'll just bring along my RENT cd and listen to Toay 4 U the whole time, to keep me in a good mood. It never fails. Maybe I'll bring a Johnny picture too, as a little reminder...
Okay well that's my little philisophical lesson for the day. Although I'm in that kind of mood, so you may get more later. Another little episodeon which I must report, because I'm in a complaining mood as well.
I don't have friends that like to call me. No one calls me, except Lonzo sometimes. But no one else thinks of little old Z, sitting by herself at home. That happened today. (Okay, well it happens every day... but here's a story for ya.) I was sposed to spend the night at Molly's (to get away from my brother and his friend) and so she was sposed to call me when she got home. Did she? No. Had other plans, and didn't tell me. (Nor did she know about them till she got home, but that's nothing new either. I know a 4 year old who keeps better track of her schedule) So I call her around 4 and find out about these plans, and... grrr. I'm just tired of it. Can I have a few friends who think about me and invite me to do stuff that acutally works out? I'm just asking for like... I dunno. 3? I guess 1 would be a start. So now you all know...
And in case you can't tell I'm in a kind of pissy, depressed mood right now. Yay! That's always something to celebrate. Anyway. I think I've written enough for you all to take in for now. More later, maybe. *walks away, to no music at all*
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