For Good

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
I have been changed for good
~*~"For Good" Wicked

Not actually good. Feeling like crap.

Really angry and sad and frustrated as hell at life.

Just waiting to scream...

Because I miss him and I hate it.

Over My Head (Cable Car)

Suddenly I've become part of the past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and it's effortless...
~*~"Over My Head (Cable Car)" The Fray

I miss him.

I just want to hug him again.

I want to lay on my bed and talk for hours like we used to.

I want to know that if I need him, he'll be there.

Instead, I have only memories.

And emptiness.

And I hate it.

New Music

His fingers stoke those keys,
And every note says "Please",
And every chord says "Turn my way."
I thought I knew
What love was but these lovers play...
New music!
Haunting me,
And somehow taunting me-
My love was never half as true.
- "New Music" Ragtime

I saw Ragtime last night... and it is now one of my favorite shows. Amazing music and the production last night had an incredibly talented cast, including my friend Scott.

Yesterday was pretty amazing, including finding out that I got a 4 on the AP US History test, a 4 on the Calculus test, and a 5 on the English language test. Yay!

I was going to post more, but I have to go get ready for rehearsal that starts in less than an hour... more later maybe.

3x5

Didn't have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world through both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way
but let me say
You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life
You'll be with me next time I go outside
- "3x5" John Mayer

I didn't actually get to see John Mayer today. I did go downtown, with Jaime and Jake, but the line to get into the theatre seating was unbelieveable... We would have had to get in line yesterday in order to get in. So essentially we went downtown and sat around in the heat for a couple of hours and then went home. We did hear one cool band called Doko Benjo. Check them out: http://www.dokobenjo.com/index2.html

We watched fireworks in the rain... that was kind of cool. And I knew about half the people in the parade... which was kind of sad.

Tomorrow's agenda: room rearranging with Jaime and Jake (apparently), working on an essay for my religion class, creating some choreography for the dances I'm teaching on Friday. Going to Subway for lunch with Jake and Jaime. Playing BopIt and DDR very loud because no one will be home. Rehearsal at 7. Good day.

Exciting announcement: Jaime, my mom, and I, are going to NYC August 9th to the 14th! Seeing ANTHONY RAPP and ADAM PASCAL in RENT on August 13th! Oh so excited... like a little kid about to go to an amusement park. Plus we're going to check out some art museums and stuff... Staying in our relatives' Manhattan apartment after we leave their NJ house. Oh man! Can't wait!

Just over 2 weeks to the opening of Urinetown... Also exciting!

Love to all cause love is good!

Hey There, Delilah

Hey there, Delilah
What's in like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true.
- "Hey There, Delilah" Plain White T's

I am in love with that song...

I have returned to Blogger after an almost year-long hiatus.

Tomorrow I'm going to the Taste to see John Mayer. It should be awesome. I'm excited to be back on my blog... now I can ramble all I want.

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Yay!

Love to all cause love is good!