Voice Mail #5

ROGER & MARK'S VOICE
"Speak..." (beep)

ROGER'S MOTHER
Roger
This is your mother
Roger, honey I don't get these postcards
"Moving to Santa Fe"
"Back in New York
Starting a rock band"
Roger, where are you? Please call

MIMI'S MOTHER
Mimi, chica, donde esta?
Tu mama esta yamando
Donde estas Mimi call

MR. JEFFERSON
Kittern - whereever are you - call

MRS. COHEN
Mark - are you there - are you there
I don't know if he's there
We're all here wishing you were here too
Where are you Mark are you there are
You where are you
Mark - are you there - are you there
I don't know if please call your mother
~*~"Voice Mail #5" RENT

This is post 81! How exciting. Ok, not really. But I just wanted to keep track of how many posts I had. Merry Christmas everyone! (And Christma-Hannu-kwanzaa-kah-yule, for you festive holiday people like me)

Hope you all got cool presents for whatever holiday you celebrate. I miss you all lots! South Dakota isn't at all exiting. As always. We're leaving either tomorrow or Monday though. So it's all good, I guess. Earlier I thought of something I wanted to say, but now I forgot. I'll post again later if I remember, I guess.

Love to all, cause love is good!

What You Own

ROGER
Just tighten those shoulders

MARK
Just clench your jaw till you frown

ROGER
Just don't let go

BOTH
Or you may drown
You're living in America
At the end of the millenium
You're living in America
Where it's like the Twilight Zone

And when you're living in America
At the end of the millenium
You're what you own

So I own not a notion
I escape and ape content
I don't own emotion - I rent

MARK
What was it about that night

ROGER
What was it about that night

BOTH
Connection - in an isolating age
~*~"What You Own" RENT

Okay so no more of those crazy long songs! hah! um... yeah. BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! People send me e-mails or something I have nothing to do out here... Blah. Can't wait to get home and back to my life. Hmmm. I have nothing to write about. what else is new? Maybe I'll go to bed! *gasp* very well then. comment and i'll post something interersting! somehow... I'll find something!

Goodbye Love

MIMI
It's true you sold your guitar and
Bought a car?

ROGER
It's true - I'm leaving now for Santa Fe
It's true you're with this yuppie scum?

BENNY
You said you'd never speak to him again

MIMI
Not now

MAUREEN
Who said that you have any say
In who she says things to at all?

ROGER
Yeah!

JOANNE
Who said that you should stick your
Nose in other people's...

MAUREEN
Who said I was talking to you?

JOANNE
We used to have this
Fight each night
She'd never admit
I existed

MIMI
He was the same way - He was always
"Run away - hit the road
Don't commit" - You're full of shit

JOANNE
She's in denial

MIMI
He's in denial

JOANNE
Didn't give an inch
When I gave a mile

MIMI
I gave a mile

ROGER
Gave a mile to who?

MARK
Come on guys, chill!

MIMI & JOANNE
I'd be happy to die for a taste
Of what Angel had
Some one to live for - unafraid
To say I love you

ROGER
All your words are nice Mimi
But love's not a three way street
You'll never share real love
Until you love yourself - I should know

COLLINS
You all said you'd be cool today
So please - for my sake

I can't believe he's gone
I can't believe you're going
I can't believe this family must die

Angel helped us believe in love
I can't believe you disagree

ALL
I can't believe this is goodbye

MARK
I hear there are great restaurants
Out west

ROGER
Some of the best.
How could she?

MARK
How could you let her go?

ROGER
I just don't know...
How could we lose Angel?

MARK
Maybe you'll see why when you stop
Escaping your pain
At least now if you try - Angel's death
Won't be in vain

ROGER
His death is in vain

MARK
Are you insane?
There's so much to care about
There's me - there's Mimi -

ROGER
Mimi's got her baggage too

MARK
So do you

ROGER
Who are you to tell me what I know
What to do?

MARK
A friend

ROGER
But who, Mark, are you?
"Mark has got his work"
They say "Mark lives for his work"
And "Mark's in love with his work"
Mark hides in his work

MARK
From what?

ROGER
From facing your failure, facing your
Lonliness
Facing the fact you live a lie
Yes, you live a lie - tell you why

You're always preaching not to be numb
But that's how you thrive
You pretend to create and observe when you really
Detatch from feeling alive

MARK
Perhaps it's because I'm the one of us
To survive

ROGER
Poor baby

MARK
Mimi still loves Roger
Is Roger really jealous
Or afraid that Mimi's weak

ROGER
Mimi did look pale

MARK
Mimi's gotten thin
Mimi's running out of time
Roger's running out the door

ROGER
No more! oh no!
I've gotta go

MARK
Hey, for somebody who's always been let down,
Who's heading out of town?

ROGER
For someone who longs for a community of his own,
Who's with his camera, alone?

I'll call
I hate the fall

You heard?

MIMI
Every word
You don't want baggage
Without lifetime guarantees

You don't want to watch me die
I just came to say goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love, goodbye

ROGER
Glory
One blaze of
Glory
I have to find

MIMI
Please don't touch me
Understand
I'm scared
I need to go away

MARK
I knw a plave - A clinic

Benny
A rehab?

MIMI
Maybe-- could you?

BENNY
I'll pay

MIMI
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love, goodbye

Just came to say
Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Hello, disease
~*~"Goodbye Love" RENT

Wow I didn't realize what a long song that was. Sorry guys. Anyway. Things are very... upside down I guess. I'm in South Dakota right now. Everybody else is upstairs. I'm hangin out down here for a little while. It's nice... I have a bedroom to myself in the basement. So if I want, I can go on in the middle of the night and no one will know. So maybe you'll all see me later. Right now I better go, because I'm not supposed to be on...

Love to all cause love is good!

Halloween

MARK
How did we get here
How the hell...
Pan left
Close on the steeple of the church
How did I get here
How the hell...
Christmas
Christmas Eve last year
How could a night so frozen
Be so scalding hot
How could a morning this mild
Be so raw
Why are entire years strewn on the cutting room floor of memory
When single frames of one magic night
Forever flicker in close up
On the 3-D imax of my mind
That's poetic
That's pathetic
Why did Mimi knock in Roger's door
And Collins choose that phone booth
Back where Angel set up his drums?
Why did Maureen's equipment break down?
Why am I the witness
And when I capture it on film
Will it mean that it's the end
And I'm alone?
~*~"Halloween" RENT

Counting down... 6 more to go! It would be nice if I could finish before the new year but we'll see how that goes. So here's what's up (since I haven't posted in 3 weeks):

1. I am in the midst of "A Year with Frog and Toad" and ITC... working backstage
2. Speech is taking up what's left of my life, practicing 2-3 days a week plus Saturday meets that last about 12 hours (yes 12, not 2).
3. Thrown in are the occasional dance class or drama class, when I can get to them
4. Oh yeah, then there's that thing called homework that my teachers expect me to have done every day. Hah! (Yeah well, that's what music theatre class is for...)

Anybody see friends mentioned in there anywhere? Yeah me neither... Although i do get to see people at school, and some people at drama, dance, and speech. Then there's my F&T cast; they're some of the most awesome people ever. Here's a comprehensive (ish) look at my upcoming 3 weeks till the end of the year:

Tuesday, December 14, 2004: We have finals, so school gets out at 1:25. But I never leave then, right? So I have speech practice till 4. Then I'm actually home for a while (maybe) until dance at 7, home at 9:30

Wednesday, December 15, 2004: Again finals, and again speech. Then home for a while (maybe) until Frog and Toad at 7. I get home at 10.

Thursday, December 16, 2004: Again finals, and actually home after school ! But wait, I have a 1:45 ortho appointment. Then home (maybe) till drama at 4. Home at 6. Then back to the theatre for Frog and Toad at 7.

Friday, December 17, 2004: NO SCHOOL! But speech practice from 12-4 (maybe) and Frog and Toad from 7 to 10.

Saturday, December 18, 2004: Speech meet from 6-6. Off to ITC at 7 for Frog and Toad.

Sunday, December 19, 2004: Picking my sorry ass up and draging myself to church at 9, home at 12 (I got dragged into the Christmas pagaent... again). Then... gasp. ITC at 1:30 for Frog and Toad. Cast party in between shows, cause it's closing night. Another show at 7:30 (I would have to be there at 6:30). Home around 9:30.

Monday, December 20, 2004: Somewhere in the last week I must have packed, because we're leaving for South Dakota. Happy holidays.

Monday, December 27. 2004: We leave South Dakota, only 2 days after Christmas.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004: Home in time to leave again to go to a YRUU (youth group) sleepover at my church to plan for our CON!!!

Wednesday, December 29, 2004: SLEEP. And off to the chiropractor in the evening because my back is a MESS

Thursday, December 30, 2004: SLEEP (gasp - nothing else???) Oh no wait, I have a bio project I have to do at some point. This must be the day.

Friday, December 31, 2004: Must still be working on that bio project. And I've got a partay to go to in the evening cause it's New-Year's EVE!!! (I've got a song for that!)

And that's the whole year... Wow I can get a lot done when I'm not doing anything else. This only took half an hour. Now I'm going to watch Will & Grace.