ZIDLER
Another hero
Another mindless crime
Behind the curtain
In the pantomime
On and on
Does anbody know
What we are living for
Whatever happened
We leave it all to chance
Another heartache,
Another failed romance
On and on
Does anybody know
What we are living for
The show must go on
The show must go on
Outside the dawn is breaking
On the stage that will
Control our final destiny
The show must go on
The show must go on
SATINE
Inside my heart is breaking
My makeup may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
ZIDLER, SATINE, & CHORUS
The show must go on
The show must go on
SATINE
I'll top the bill
I'll earn the kill
I have to find the will to carry on
ALL
On with the
On with the
On with the show
~*~"On With the Show" Moulin Rouge
Hey hey everybody. I was gonna post some poetry, but Will and Grace is on. So hold on a moment. I'll be back at commercial.
Okay so anyway. Not a lot of time so let me get to the poetry.
Economic
Here is what we live in
A world of no return
Money is popularity
We measure destruction in dollars
More valuable than human lives
Se we send out our death armies
Who futily fight for good
To only kill and in turn
Be killed
A war, costing millions of dollars
But what is the cost
Of one fatal gunshot?
The measure of a life
--1/11/05
All I have time for now, actually. I have to go make dinner. More later though, after my chiropractor's appointment. What fun.
Love to all cause love is good!
Monday, January 17, 2005
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Finale B
WOMEN
I can't control
My destiny
I trusy my soul
My only goal
Is just to be
Without you
The hand gropes
The ear hears
The pulse beats
Lofe goes on
But I'm gone
Cause I die without you
I die without you
I die without you
I die without you
MEN (simultaneously)
Will I lose my dignity
Will someone
Care
Will I wake tomorrow
From this
Nightmare
There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day
But today
No day but today
ALL
No day but today
~*~"Finale B" RENT
And so we conclude, my fine ladies and gentlemen, in a quite fitting manner.
Um, don't ask. I'm in a very odd state right now. Feeling kind of shitty, actually. Johnny and the rest of Finding Neverland got gipped at the Golden Globes tonight. So did Will and Grace. So the night was rather a bore and a big disappointment. Only highligts: seeing Johnny, Kate Winslet, Debra Messing, Eric Macormick, Charlize Theron, and Nicole Kidman (though she had terrible hair... like she was wearing an old lady wig from... well she's never been an old lady. I don't know. Maybe from what's that movie... the one where she had the fake nose. White Oleander maybe. but anywho. I digress)
Well, not much to say really. Did have a good time at lunch today with Bev and Alice. We went to a place in Homewood called Eat Rice. It was good stuff. Then we went back to their house and watched this movie called Defending Your Life. More good stuff. I liked it a lot. I had never heard of Arthur Brooks before, but he's a cool guy.
Anywho. I would post poems, but once again they are all the way up in my room. Oh and btw - that e-mail address up there doesn't work. Don't try it. Sorry.
So now that you're all confused, I think I'll leave you all to contemplate the meaningful meaning of what I just said. In the meantime, I will write some poems and watch a Johnny Depp movie. I bid you adeiu.
Love to all cause love is good!
I can't control
My destiny
I trusy my soul
My only goal
Is just to be
Without you
The hand gropes
The ear hears
The pulse beats
Lofe goes on
But I'm gone
Cause I die without you
I die without you
I die without you
I die without you
MEN (simultaneously)
Will I lose my dignity
Will someone
Care
Will I wake tomorrow
From this
Nightmare
There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day
But today
No day but today
ALL
No day but today
~*~"Finale B" RENT
And so we conclude, my fine ladies and gentlemen, in a quite fitting manner.
Um, don't ask. I'm in a very odd state right now. Feeling kind of shitty, actually. Johnny and the rest of Finding Neverland got gipped at the Golden Globes tonight. So did Will and Grace. So the night was rather a bore and a big disappointment. Only highligts: seeing Johnny, Kate Winslet, Debra Messing, Eric Macormick, Charlize Theron, and Nicole Kidman (though she had terrible hair... like she was wearing an old lady wig from... well she's never been an old lady. I don't know. Maybe from what's that movie... the one where she had the fake nose. White Oleander maybe. but anywho. I digress)
Well, not much to say really. Did have a good time at lunch today with Bev and Alice. We went to a place in Homewood called Eat Rice. It was good stuff. Then we went back to their house and watched this movie called Defending Your Life. More good stuff. I liked it a lot. I had never heard of Arthur Brooks before, but he's a cool guy.
Anywho. I would post poems, but once again they are all the way up in my room. Oh and btw - that e-mail address up there doesn't work. Don't try it. Sorry.
So now that you're all confused, I think I'll leave you all to contemplate the meaningful meaning of what I just said. In the meantime, I will write some poems and watch a Johnny Depp movie. I bid you adeiu.
Love to all cause love is good!
Saturday, January 15, 2005
Your Eyes
ROGER
Your eyes...
As we said our goodbyes
Can't get them out of my mind
And I find
I can't hide (from)
Your eyes
The ones that took me by surprise
The night you came into my life
Where there's moonlight I see
Your eyes
How'd I let you slip away
When I'm longing so to hold you?
Now I'd die for one more day
Cause there's something I should have told you
Yes there's something I should have told you
When I looked into
Your eyes
Why does distance make us wise?
You were the song all along
And before the song dies
I should tell you
I should tell you
I have always loved you
You can see it in
My eyes
~*~"Your Eyes" RENT
One more guys! I know you're all ready to be done with these songs. Much as I love them, I want to be able to use other stuff. There's some kick ass songs that deserve a place at the beginning of a post.
Anywho. I know I haven't posted in a while so this is just a big hello to everyone out there who's had nothing to read since whenever the last time I posted was. I'm in the midst of a 5 day weeked, which is awesome, except that now we have an extra day of school at the end of the year to make up for Thursday, when we had a sewer problem.
In the meantime, I've been reading for English, watching movies *wink wink* (Johnny *faint*), watching Queer Eye (Jai *faint*), and going to Curves with my mom. Today my dad's friend Cliff came over and helped us fix our very messed up bathroom floor (details of which I won't get into other than to say there were moldy floorboards from a leeky toilet). Tomorrow my mom and I are going out to lunch with Alice and her mom, and then we're going to watch movies at their house. It will be good fun.
Other things to talk about! Nia spent last weekend at our house. It was good to see her again and just hang out for a few days. We watched a couple scary movies. Well, one actually, Carrie, and then Blair Witch Project 2. That movie was just stupid. Carrie, on the other hand, had a freaky Jesus statue that will haunt me until I die. That movie was cuh-ray-zee. Seriously though. We watched it at about 10 at night, alone in the dark, while my parents were out and my brother was sleeping. Just the right ambiance to get really freaked out.
Last Sunday was the People's Choice Awards, and tre magnifique, Johnny won for favorite actor. Woot! He was there to accept the award, but he did a live via satellite thingy. He doesn't like talking in public anyhow, so I'm sure that was much more convenient.
Then on Monday was the Critic's Choice Awards, where Finding Neverland had 7 nominations. (woot woot!) It won 2, for best young actor (Freddie Highmore - Peter Davies) and for best family film. In addition it was nominated for best actor (Johnny), best supporting actress (Kate Winslet *faint*), best firector (Mark Forester), best screenwriter (can't remember his name. but I met him in New York), and *gasp* for BEST FILM. That was quite an exciting night.
Wednesday I went over to Forest Trail to see all my old teachers cause we had an early realease. That was good fun. I gotta say, I don't miss the school, but I do miss my teachers. Mrs. Brennan's 50th is coming up, and I'll have to do something special for her.
But anyway. I think I've said enough for now. Next time I post, I may remember to grab some poetry for you all to read. Maybe.
Love to all cause love is good!
Your eyes...
As we said our goodbyes
Can't get them out of my mind
And I find
I can't hide (from)
Your eyes
The ones that took me by surprise
The night you came into my life
Where there's moonlight I see
Your eyes
How'd I let you slip away
When I'm longing so to hold you?
Now I'd die for one more day
Cause there's something I should have told you
Yes there's something I should have told you
When I looked into
Your eyes
Why does distance make us wise?
You were the song all along
And before the song dies
I should tell you
I should tell you
I have always loved you
You can see it in
My eyes
~*~"Your Eyes" RENT
One more guys! I know you're all ready to be done with these songs. Much as I love them, I want to be able to use other stuff. There's some kick ass songs that deserve a place at the beginning of a post.
Anywho. I know I haven't posted in a while so this is just a big hello to everyone out there who's had nothing to read since whenever the last time I posted was. I'm in the midst of a 5 day weeked, which is awesome, except that now we have an extra day of school at the end of the year to make up for Thursday, when we had a sewer problem.
In the meantime, I've been reading for English, watching movies *wink wink* (Johnny *faint*), watching Queer Eye (Jai *faint*), and going to Curves with my mom. Today my dad's friend Cliff came over and helped us fix our very messed up bathroom floor (details of which I won't get into other than to say there were moldy floorboards from a leeky toilet). Tomorrow my mom and I are going out to lunch with Alice and her mom, and then we're going to watch movies at their house. It will be good fun.
Other things to talk about! Nia spent last weekend at our house. It was good to see her again and just hang out for a few days. We watched a couple scary movies. Well, one actually, Carrie, and then Blair Witch Project 2. That movie was just stupid. Carrie, on the other hand, had a freaky Jesus statue that will haunt me until I die. That movie was cuh-ray-zee. Seriously though. We watched it at about 10 at night, alone in the dark, while my parents were out and my brother was sleeping. Just the right ambiance to get really freaked out.
Last Sunday was the People's Choice Awards, and tre magnifique, Johnny won for favorite actor. Woot! He was there to accept the award, but he did a live via satellite thingy. He doesn't like talking in public anyhow, so I'm sure that was much more convenient.
Then on Monday was the Critic's Choice Awards, where Finding Neverland had 7 nominations. (woot woot!) It won 2, for best young actor (Freddie Highmore - Peter Davies) and for best family film. In addition it was nominated for best actor (Johnny), best supporting actress (Kate Winslet *faint*), best firector (Mark Forester), best screenwriter (can't remember his name. but I met him in New York), and *gasp* for BEST FILM. That was quite an exciting night.
Wednesday I went over to Forest Trail to see all my old teachers cause we had an early realease. That was good fun. I gotta say, I don't miss the school, but I do miss my teachers. Mrs. Brennan's 50th is coming up, and I'll have to do something special for her.
But anyway. I think I've said enough for now. Next time I post, I may remember to grab some poetry for you all to read. Maybe.
Love to all cause love is good!
Monday, January 10, 2005
Finale
COLLINS
I had a little hunch
You could use
A little flow
ROGER
Tutoring again?
COLLINS
Negative
MARK
Back at NYU?
COLLINS
No, no, no
I rewired the ATM at the fool
Emporium
To provide an honorarium to anyone
With the code
ROGER & MARK
The code...
Well...?
COLLINS
A-N-G-E-L
~*~"Finale" RENT
How ironic to start the new year with a finale. Somehow seems fitting, actually. Only 2 more songs though, guys. I promise.
Just wanted to say hi. Don't have time to post... need to go do stuff. But life has been good lately. Can't wait to start drama on thursday and get back to ITC. Haven't been there since Frog and Toad closed on December 19th! OMG such a long time!
Love to all cause love is good!
I had a little hunch
You could use
A little flow
ROGER
Tutoring again?
COLLINS
Negative
MARK
Back at NYU?
COLLINS
No, no, no
I rewired the ATM at the fool
Emporium
To provide an honorarium to anyone
With the code
ROGER & MARK
The code...
Well...?
COLLINS
A-N-G-E-L
~*~"Finale" RENT
How ironic to start the new year with a finale. Somehow seems fitting, actually. Only 2 more songs though, guys. I promise.
Just wanted to say hi. Don't have time to post... need to go do stuff. But life has been good lately. Can't wait to start drama on thursday and get back to ITC. Haven't been there since Frog and Toad closed on December 19th! OMG such a long time!
Love to all cause love is good!
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Voice Mail #5
ROGER & MARK'S VOICE
"Speak..." (beep)
ROGER'S MOTHER
Roger
This is your mother
Roger, honey I don't get these postcards
"Moving to Santa Fe"
"Back in New York
Starting a rock band"
Roger, where are you? Please call
MIMI'S MOTHER
Mimi, chica, donde esta?
Tu mama esta yamando
Donde estas Mimi call
MR. JEFFERSON
Kittern - whereever are you - call
MRS. COHEN
Mark - are you there - are you there
I don't know if he's there
We're all here wishing you were here too
Where are you Mark are you there are
You where are you
Mark - are you there - are you there
I don't know if please call your mother
~*~"Voice Mail #5" RENT
This is post 81! How exciting. Ok, not really. But I just wanted to keep track of how many posts I had. Merry Christmas everyone! (And Christma-Hannu-kwanzaa-kah-yule, for you festive holiday people like me)
Hope you all got cool presents for whatever holiday you celebrate. I miss you all lots! South Dakota isn't at all exiting. As always. We're leaving either tomorrow or Monday though. So it's all good, I guess. Earlier I thought of something I wanted to say, but now I forgot. I'll post again later if I remember, I guess.
Love to all, cause love is good!
"Speak..." (beep)
ROGER'S MOTHER
Roger
This is your mother
Roger, honey I don't get these postcards
"Moving to Santa Fe"
"Back in New York
Starting a rock band"
Roger, where are you? Please call
MIMI'S MOTHER
Mimi, chica, donde esta?
Tu mama esta yamando
Donde estas Mimi call
MR. JEFFERSON
Kittern - whereever are you - call
MRS. COHEN
Mark - are you there - are you there
I don't know if he's there
We're all here wishing you were here too
Where are you Mark are you there are
You where are you
Mark - are you there - are you there
I don't know if please call your mother
~*~"Voice Mail #5" RENT
This is post 81! How exciting. Ok, not really. But I just wanted to keep track of how many posts I had. Merry Christmas everyone! (And Christma-Hannu-kwanzaa-kah-yule, for you festive holiday people like me)
Hope you all got cool presents for whatever holiday you celebrate. I miss you all lots! South Dakota isn't at all exiting. As always. We're leaving either tomorrow or Monday though. So it's all good, I guess. Earlier I thought of something I wanted to say, but now I forgot. I'll post again later if I remember, I guess.
Love to all, cause love is good!
Friday, December 24, 2004
What You Own
ROGER
Just tighten those shoulders
MARK
Just clench your jaw till you frown
ROGER
Just don't let go
BOTH
Or you may drown
You're living in America
At the end of the millenium
You're living in America
Where it's like the Twilight Zone
And when you're living in America
At the end of the millenium
You're what you own
So I own not a notion
I escape and ape content
I don't own emotion - I rent
MARK
What was it about that night
ROGER
What was it about that night
BOTH
Connection - in an isolating age
~*~"What You Own" RENT
Okay so no more of those crazy long songs! hah! um... yeah. BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! People send me e-mails or something I have nothing to do out here... Blah. Can't wait to get home and back to my life. Hmmm. I have nothing to write about. what else is new? Maybe I'll go to bed! *gasp* very well then. comment and i'll post something interersting! somehow... I'll find something!
Just tighten those shoulders
MARK
Just clench your jaw till you frown
ROGER
Just don't let go
BOTH
Or you may drown
You're living in America
At the end of the millenium
You're living in America
Where it's like the Twilight Zone
And when you're living in America
At the end of the millenium
You're what you own
So I own not a notion
I escape and ape content
I don't own emotion - I rent
MARK
What was it about that night
ROGER
What was it about that night
BOTH
Connection - in an isolating age
~*~"What You Own" RENT
Okay so no more of those crazy long songs! hah! um... yeah. BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! People send me e-mails or something I have nothing to do out here... Blah. Can't wait to get home and back to my life. Hmmm. I have nothing to write about. what else is new? Maybe I'll go to bed! *gasp* very well then. comment and i'll post something interersting! somehow... I'll find something!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Goodbye Love
MIMI
It's true you sold your guitar and
Bought a car?
ROGER
It's true - I'm leaving now for Santa Fe
It's true you're with this yuppie scum?
BENNY
You said you'd never speak to him again
MIMI
Not now
MAUREEN
Who said that you have any say
In who she says things to at all?
ROGER
Yeah!
JOANNE
Who said that you should stick your
Nose in other people's...
MAUREEN
Who said I was talking to you?
JOANNE
We used to have this
Fight each night
She'd never admit
I existed
MIMI
He was the same way - He was always
"Run away - hit the road
Don't commit" - You're full of shit
JOANNE
She's in denial
MIMI
He's in denial
JOANNE
Didn't give an inch
When I gave a mile
MIMI
I gave a mile
ROGER
Gave a mile to who?
MARK
Come on guys, chill!
MIMI & JOANNE
I'd be happy to die for a taste
Of what Angel had
Some one to live for - unafraid
To say I love you
ROGER
All your words are nice Mimi
But love's not a three way street
You'll never share real love
Until you love yourself - I should know
COLLINS
You all said you'd be cool today
So please - for my sake
I can't believe he's gone
I can't believe you're going
I can't believe this family must die
Angel helped us believe in love
I can't believe you disagree
ALL
I can't believe this is goodbye
MARK
I hear there are great restaurants
Out west
ROGER
Some of the best.
How could she?
MARK
How could you let her go?
ROGER
I just don't know...
How could we lose Angel?
MARK
Maybe you'll see why when you stop
Escaping your pain
At least now if you try - Angel's death
Won't be in vain
ROGER
His death is in vain
MARK
Are you insane?
There's so much to care about
There's me - there's Mimi -
ROGER
Mimi's got her baggage too
MARK
So do you
ROGER
Who are you to tell me what I know
What to do?
MARK
A friend
ROGER
But who, Mark, are you?
"Mark has got his work"
They say "Mark lives for his work"
And "Mark's in love with his work"
Mark hides in his work
MARK
From what?
ROGER
From facing your failure, facing your
Lonliness
Facing the fact you live a lie
Yes, you live a lie - tell you why
You're always preaching not to be numb
But that's how you thrive
You pretend to create and observe when you really
Detatch from feeling alive
MARK
Perhaps it's because I'm the one of us
To survive
ROGER
Poor baby
MARK
Mimi still loves Roger
Is Roger really jealous
Or afraid that Mimi's weak
ROGER
Mimi did look pale
MARK
Mimi's gotten thin
Mimi's running out of time
Roger's running out the door
ROGER
No more! oh no!
I've gotta go
MARK
Hey, for somebody who's always been let down,
Who's heading out of town?
ROGER
For someone who longs for a community of his own,
Who's with his camera, alone?
I'll call
I hate the fall
You heard?
MIMI
Every word
You don't want baggage
Without lifetime guarantees
You don't want to watch me die
I just came to say goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love, goodbye
ROGER
Glory
One blaze of
Glory
I have to find
MIMI
Please don't touch me
Understand
I'm scared
I need to go away
MARK
I knw a plave - A clinic
Benny
A rehab?
MIMI
Maybe-- could you?
BENNY
I'll pay
MIMI
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love, goodbye
Just came to say
Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Hello, disease
~*~"Goodbye Love" RENT
Wow I didn't realize what a long song that was. Sorry guys. Anyway. Things are very... upside down I guess. I'm in South Dakota right now. Everybody else is upstairs. I'm hangin out down here for a little while. It's nice... I have a bedroom to myself in the basement. So if I want, I can go on in the middle of the night and no one will know. So maybe you'll all see me later. Right now I better go, because I'm not supposed to be on...
Love to all cause love is good!
It's true you sold your guitar and
Bought a car?
ROGER
It's true - I'm leaving now for Santa Fe
It's true you're with this yuppie scum?
BENNY
You said you'd never speak to him again
MIMI
Not now
MAUREEN
Who said that you have any say
In who she says things to at all?
ROGER
Yeah!
JOANNE
Who said that you should stick your
Nose in other people's...
MAUREEN
Who said I was talking to you?
JOANNE
We used to have this
Fight each night
She'd never admit
I existed
MIMI
He was the same way - He was always
"Run away - hit the road
Don't commit" - You're full of shit
JOANNE
She's in denial
MIMI
He's in denial
JOANNE
Didn't give an inch
When I gave a mile
MIMI
I gave a mile
ROGER
Gave a mile to who?
MARK
Come on guys, chill!
MIMI & JOANNE
I'd be happy to die for a taste
Of what Angel had
Some one to live for - unafraid
To say I love you
ROGER
All your words are nice Mimi
But love's not a three way street
You'll never share real love
Until you love yourself - I should know
COLLINS
You all said you'd be cool today
So please - for my sake
I can't believe he's gone
I can't believe you're going
I can't believe this family must die
Angel helped us believe in love
I can't believe you disagree
ALL
I can't believe this is goodbye
MARK
I hear there are great restaurants
Out west
ROGER
Some of the best.
How could she?
MARK
How could you let her go?
ROGER
I just don't know...
How could we lose Angel?
MARK
Maybe you'll see why when you stop
Escaping your pain
At least now if you try - Angel's death
Won't be in vain
ROGER
His death is in vain
MARK
Are you insane?
There's so much to care about
There's me - there's Mimi -
ROGER
Mimi's got her baggage too
MARK
So do you
ROGER
Who are you to tell me what I know
What to do?
MARK
A friend
ROGER
But who, Mark, are you?
"Mark has got his work"
They say "Mark lives for his work"
And "Mark's in love with his work"
Mark hides in his work
MARK
From what?
ROGER
From facing your failure, facing your
Lonliness
Facing the fact you live a lie
Yes, you live a lie - tell you why
You're always preaching not to be numb
But that's how you thrive
You pretend to create and observe when you really
Detatch from feeling alive
MARK
Perhaps it's because I'm the one of us
To survive
ROGER
Poor baby
MARK
Mimi still loves Roger
Is Roger really jealous
Or afraid that Mimi's weak
ROGER
Mimi did look pale
MARK
Mimi's gotten thin
Mimi's running out of time
Roger's running out the door
ROGER
No more! oh no!
I've gotta go
MARK
Hey, for somebody who's always been let down,
Who's heading out of town?
ROGER
For someone who longs for a community of his own,
Who's with his camera, alone?
I'll call
I hate the fall
You heard?
MIMI
Every word
You don't want baggage
Without lifetime guarantees
You don't want to watch me die
I just came to say goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love, goodbye
ROGER
Glory
One blaze of
Glory
I have to find
MIMI
Please don't touch me
Understand
I'm scared
I need to go away
MARK
I knw a plave - A clinic
Benny
A rehab?
MIMI
Maybe-- could you?
BENNY
I'll pay
MIMI
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love, goodbye
Just came to say
Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Hello, disease
~*~"Goodbye Love" RENT
Wow I didn't realize what a long song that was. Sorry guys. Anyway. Things are very... upside down I guess. I'm in South Dakota right now. Everybody else is upstairs. I'm hangin out down here for a little while. It's nice... I have a bedroom to myself in the basement. So if I want, I can go on in the middle of the night and no one will know. So maybe you'll all see me later. Right now I better go, because I'm not supposed to be on...
Love to all cause love is good!
Monday, December 13, 2004
Halloween
MARK
How did we get here
How the hell...
Pan left
Close on the steeple of the church
How did I get here
How the hell...
Christmas
Christmas Eve last year
How could a night so frozen
Be so scalding hot
How could a morning this mild
Be so raw
Why are entire years strewn on the cutting room floor of memory
When single frames of one magic night
Forever flicker in close up
On the 3-D imax of my mind
That's poetic
That's pathetic
Why did Mimi knock in Roger's door
And Collins choose that phone booth
Back where Angel set up his drums?
Why did Maureen's equipment break down?
Why am I the witness
And when I capture it on film
Will it mean that it's the end
And I'm alone?
~*~"Halloween" RENT
Counting down... 6 more to go! It would be nice if I could finish before the new year but we'll see how that goes. So here's what's up (since I haven't posted in 3 weeks):
How did we get here
How the hell...
Pan left
Close on the steeple of the church
How did I get here
How the hell...
Christmas
Christmas Eve last year
How could a night so frozen
Be so scalding hot
How could a morning this mild
Be so raw
Why are entire years strewn on the cutting room floor of memory
When single frames of one magic night
Forever flicker in close up
On the 3-D imax of my mind
That's poetic
That's pathetic
Why did Mimi knock in Roger's door
And Collins choose that phone booth
Back where Angel set up his drums?
Why did Maureen's equipment break down?
Why am I the witness
And when I capture it on film
Will it mean that it's the end
And I'm alone?
~*~"Halloween" RENT
Counting down... 6 more to go! It would be nice if I could finish before the new year but we'll see how that goes. So here's what's up (since I haven't posted in 3 weeks):
- I am in the midst of "A Year with Frog and Toad" and ITC... working backstage
- Speech is taking up what's left of my life, practicing 2-3 days a week plus Saturday meets that last about 12 hours (yes 12, not 2).
- Thrown in are the occasional dance class or drama class, when I can get to them
- Oh yeah, then there's that thing called homework that my teachers expect me to have done every day. Hah! (Yeah well, that's what music theatre class is for...)
Anybody see friends mentioned in there anywhere? Yeah me neither... Although i do get to see people at school, and some people at drama, dance, and speech. Then there's my F&T cast; they're some of the most awesome people ever. Here's a comprehensive (ish) look at my upcoming 3 weeks till the end of the year:
Tuesday, December 14, 2004: We have finals, so school gets out at 1:25. But I never leave then, right? So I have speech practice till 4. Then I'm actually home for a while (maybe) until dance at 7, home at 9:30
Wednesday, December 15, 2004: Again finals, and again speech. Then home for a while (maybe) until Frog and Toad at 7. I get home at 10.
Thursday, December 16, 2004: Again finals, and actually home after school ! But wait, I have a 1:45 ortho appointment. Then home (maybe) till drama at 4. Home at 6. Then back to the theatre for Frog and Toad at 7.
Friday, December 17, 2004: NO SCHOOL! But speech practice from 12-4 (maybe) and Frog and Toad from 7 to 10.
Saturday, December 18, 2004: Speech meet from 6-6. Off to ITC at 7 for Frog and Toad.
Sunday, December 19, 2004: Picking my sorry ass up and draging myself to church at 9, home at 12 (I got dragged into the Christmas pagaent... again). Then... gasp. ITC at 1:30 for Frog and Toad. Cast party in between shows, cause it's closing night. Another show at 7:30 (I would have to be there at 6:30). Home around 9:30.
Monday, December 20, 2004: Somewhere in the last week I must have packed, because we're leaving for South Dakota. Happy holidays.
Monday, December 27. 2004: We leave South Dakota, only 2 days after Christmas.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004: Home in time to leave again to go to a YRUU (youth group) sleepover at my church to plan for our CON!!!
Wednesday, December 29, 2004: SLEEP. And off to the chiropractor in the evening because my back is a MESS
Thursday, December 30, 2004: SLEEP (gasp - nothing else???) Oh no wait, I have a bio project I have to do at some point. This must be the day.
Friday, December 31, 2004: Must still be working on that bio project. And I've got a partay to go to in the evening cause it's New-Year's EVE!!! (I've got a song for that!)
And that's the whole year... Wow I can get a lot done when I'm not doing anything else. This only took half an hour. Now I'm going to watch Will & Grace.
Sunday, November 21, 2004
I'll Cover You (Reprise)
COLLINS
Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back with 1000 kisses
Be my lover
And I'll cover you
Open your door - I'll be your tenant
Don't got much bagage
To lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll be there - I'll cover you
I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you were, my love, on life
All my life
I've longed to discover
Something as true
As this is
(So with a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
If you're cold and you're lonely
(With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
You've got one nickel only
(With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
When you're worn out and tired
(With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
When your heart has expired
525, 600 minutes
525,600 moments so dear
525,600 - measure a year
Oh lover, I'll cover you
Oh lover, I'll cover you
Oh lover
I'll cover you
525,600 minutes
525, 600 seasons of love
I'll cover you
~*~"I'll Cover You (Reprise)" RENT
Wow... These songs are taking forever to get through! Ahhhh! Anyway. On to other things, because I will not be spazmatic today. I don't have the energy.
Got home last night around 1 in the morning. The cast party was fun. It ended up being at Eddie's house instead of Eric's, but that was fine. Got to have a big group conversation about stuff with a lot of people. Kevin, Justine, Linda etc. were fun to be around, and I got to talk to people I hadn't really talked to during the show. Micheal didn't come to the cast party, but I did get to talk to him backstage, and that was good.
Today I went to church and we had soup kitchen!!! Wooo! Never underestimate the power of food to get people to come to things. I haven't seen that many people at church in a while. And then I got to go to my first congregational meeting, because I'm a member now! (woot woot) That was really fun, actually, because it went smoothly and only lasted 40 minutes. Unlike our infamous 4 hour meetings. So after that me and Mandy went and saw Finding Neverland. That movie puts a smile in my heart. So does Mandy. :)
Okay anyway. Gonna try and post at least a poem, because I need to go in 5 minutes, again.
Uprising
To stand for something
Is to be worth something
But what do I stand for?
I stand for equality
That I am afraid to defend
I stand for love
That I know nothing about
I stnad for peace
That I can not create
I stand for myself
That I am afraid to be.
--11.17.04
Closer Yet
I find it rather inconvenient
Falling in love with
Straight girls
Gay boys
What am I to do
So that I'm not
Left alone?
--11.17.04
Non-Existant Hallucinations
It's very lonely
In the silence
Waiting for the voices
That I know will come
Because I hate so much
To be alone that
I fabricate my life
With nonesistant
Hallucinations
If ever they were
To go away
I would be doomed
To insanity
If I'm not
Insane already
--11.18.04
Okay, going for now. Love to all cause love is good.
Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back with 1000 kisses
Be my lover
And I'll cover you
Open your door - I'll be your tenant
Don't got much bagage
To lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll be there - I'll cover you
I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you were, my love, on life
All my life
I've longed to discover
Something as true
As this is
(So with a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
If you're cold and you're lonely
(With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
You've got one nickel only
(With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
When you're worn out and tired
(With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you)
When your heart has expired
525, 600 minutes
525,600 moments so dear
525,600 - measure a year
Oh lover, I'll cover you
Oh lover, I'll cover you
Oh lover
I'll cover you
525,600 minutes
525, 600 seasons of love
I'll cover you
~*~"I'll Cover You (Reprise)" RENT
Wow... These songs are taking forever to get through! Ahhhh! Anyway. On to other things, because I will not be spazmatic today. I don't have the energy.
Got home last night around 1 in the morning. The cast party was fun. It ended up being at Eddie's house instead of Eric's, but that was fine. Got to have a big group conversation about stuff with a lot of people. Kevin, Justine, Linda etc. were fun to be around, and I got to talk to people I hadn't really talked to during the show. Micheal didn't come to the cast party, but I did get to talk to him backstage, and that was good.
Today I went to church and we had soup kitchen!!! Wooo! Never underestimate the power of food to get people to come to things. I haven't seen that many people at church in a while. And then I got to go to my first congregational meeting, because I'm a member now! (woot woot) That was really fun, actually, because it went smoothly and only lasted 40 minutes. Unlike our infamous 4 hour meetings. So after that me and Mandy went and saw Finding Neverland. That movie puts a smile in my heart. So does Mandy. :)
Okay anyway. Gonna try and post at least a poem, because I need to go in 5 minutes, again.
Uprising
To stand for something
Is to be worth something
But what do I stand for?
I stand for equality
That I am afraid to defend
I stand for love
That I know nothing about
I stnad for peace
That I can not create
I stand for myself
That I am afraid to be.
--11.17.04
Closer Yet
I find it rather inconvenient
Falling in love with
Straight girls
Gay boys
What am I to do
So that I'm not
Left alone?
--11.17.04
Non-Existant Hallucinations
It's very lonely
In the silence
Waiting for the voices
That I know will come
Because I hate so much
To be alone that
I fabricate my life
With nonesistant
Hallucinations
If ever they were
To go away
I would be doomed
To insanity
If I'm not
Insane already
--11.18.04
Okay, going for now. Love to all cause love is good.
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Contact
ANGEL
Take me
Take me
Take me
Today for you
Tomorrow for me
Today me
Tomorrow you
Tomorrow
You, love
You, love
You, love
I love you
I love you
Take me
Take me
I love you
~*~"Contact" RENT
So things have been interesting lately... So much going on. Had opening night of the play last night, and that went well... Closing night tonight! Trying to make sure all my speech stuff is memorized for the big SICA speech meet on Tuesday. I have a new job now at ITC, working backstage and stuff, so all details coming up in this issue of my blog! (too much coffee this morning)
Last night went well. Very well, I think. No big disasters. And afterwards almost the entire cast went out to eat at Baker's Square. Talked to Michael about some stuff... I rode in Eddie's car. It was fun. lol. Didn't get home till about 12:30 and went to bed at 2.
Tonight there's a cast party after the show at Eric's house. That shall be much fun also. I think just about everybody is going to that too. More about that after it's happened.
Still working on getting my OO memorized properly. Hadn't been doing so because Morain was supposed to help me rewrite it and that didn't happen. Oh well. Things are going okay, I think.
And yeah, now I'm working backstage for "A Year With Frog and Toad" at ITC. I have to do some puppet work, and help out with props and costumes and stuff, so from now until December 19th I have no life because I will be at rehearsal almost every day and then I have to be at every show. How exciting! But it does pay well, so that's okay. It will be fun and awesome.
I was gonna post poems, but I have to go because I need to be at school in 20 minutes, and I better make sure I'm ready for my ride to pick me up. See you all later!
Take me
Take me
Take me
Today for you
Tomorrow for me
Today me
Tomorrow you
Tomorrow
You, love
You, love
You, love
I love you
I love you
Take me
Take me
I love you
~*~"Contact" RENT
So things have been interesting lately... So much going on. Had opening night of the play last night, and that went well... Closing night tonight! Trying to make sure all my speech stuff is memorized for the big SICA speech meet on Tuesday. I have a new job now at ITC, working backstage and stuff, so all details coming up in this issue of my blog! (too much coffee this morning)
Last night went well. Very well, I think. No big disasters. And afterwards almost the entire cast went out to eat at Baker's Square. Talked to Michael about some stuff... I rode in Eddie's car. It was fun. lol. Didn't get home till about 12:30 and went to bed at 2.
Tonight there's a cast party after the show at Eric's house. That shall be much fun also. I think just about everybody is going to that too. More about that after it's happened.
Still working on getting my OO memorized properly. Hadn't been doing so because Morain was supposed to help me rewrite it and that didn't happen. Oh well. Things are going okay, I think.
And yeah, now I'm working backstage for "A Year With Frog and Toad" at ITC. I have to do some puppet work, and help out with props and costumes and stuff, so from now until December 19th I have no life because I will be at rehearsal almost every day and then I have to be at every show. How exciting! But it does pay well, so that's okay. It will be fun and awesome.
I was gonna post poems, but I have to go because I need to be at school in 20 minutes, and I better make sure I'm ready for my ride to pick me up. See you all later!
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Voicemail #4
ALEXI DARLING
Mark Cohen
Alexi Darling
Labor Day Weekend
In East-Ampton
On the beach
Just saw Alec Baldwin
Told him you said "hi"
Just kidding
We still need directors
You still need money
You know you need money
Don't be afraid of ker-ching ker-ching
Markie, sell us your soul
Just kidding
We're waiting
~*~"Voicemail #4" RENT
Not much to say today. I'm busy, but it's all with the same stuff all the time, so there's nothing interesting to tell you guys, except something I can't tell you. Anywho.
I suppose I can post poems as I always do. Though I've written some I'm not going to post, because they're private. Okay but here goes.
Oh wait, nvm. There's only a few and I don't wanna post them. Sorry.
Alonzo I love you very very much and I'm here for you... So is someone else! (AAHHHH!!!!) {shutting up before I get myself in trouble}
So as I was saying. Let's see... Been feelin kinda sad lately. Not totally sure why. Just lonely, I guess, even though I have a few friends... Hmh. Interesting, isn't it, how the human mind works? Damnit... I'm about to get into a philisophical thing (as I so often do), and now I g2g.
Love to all cause love is good. (post comments! just for the hell of it!)
Mark Cohen
Alexi Darling
Labor Day Weekend
In East-Ampton
On the beach
Just saw Alec Baldwin
Told him you said "hi"
Just kidding
We still need directors
You still need money
You know you need money
Don't be afraid of ker-ching ker-ching
Markie, sell us your soul
Just kidding
We're waiting
~*~"Voicemail #4" RENT
Not much to say today. I'm busy, but it's all with the same stuff all the time, so there's nothing interesting to tell you guys, except something I can't tell you. Anywho.
I suppose I can post poems as I always do. Though I've written some I'm not going to post, because they're private. Okay but here goes.
Oh wait, nvm. There's only a few and I don't wanna post them. Sorry.
Alonzo I love you very very much and I'm here for you... So is someone else! (AAHHHH!!!!) {shutting up before I get myself in trouble}
So as I was saying. Let's see... Been feelin kinda sad lately. Not totally sure why. Just lonely, I guess, even though I have a few friends... Hmh. Interesting, isn't it, how the human mind works? Damnit... I'm about to get into a philisophical thing (as I so often do), and now I g2g.
Love to all cause love is good. (post comments! just for the hell of it!)
Monday, November 15, 2004
Without You
MIMI
Without you
The seeds root
The flowers bloom
The children play
The stars gleam
The poets dream
The eagles fly
Without you
The earth turns
The sun burns
But I die
Without you
~*~"Without You" RENT
And that song just goes on and on for ever, so we'll leave it at that. Anyway. Got into a thoughtful mood last night around midnight and wrote some poems, which I'd like to share along with a few others I wrote a while back, (BTW - it's it amazing? I'm on 2 whole days in a row! not weeks, days!)
A New Kind of Love
When I see your eyes
They sparkle like stars
And when I see your mouth
You face shines like the moon
As you walk through the field
I am watching you
Then it starts to rain
And I am sad for you
I want to bring you an umbrella
But then you'd know I was watching
So I wait for you to pass
And suddenly you are dancing
Spinning away the raindrops
Becoming a beautiful fountain
Flashing in the spray
I cannot hold back any longer
So I run to dance with you
I run between the raindrops
And then blend in with the falling
When the rain stops
The sun comes out
And finally you notice me
Because we are alone
Our gazes meet and I know
We are the same
I feel your soul
Never did I know such a connection existed
As the one I feel with you now
So please just love me
Together we can fight any opposition
In this hateful world.
--11.5.04
Real World
Finally things
Are going your way
So maybe you don't
Have to be scared
Anymore.
Things are going so well
It's as though
You left the real world
Behind. And left
Me behind in it.
--11.9.04
For Forgiving
It has taken me
All this time to realize
That we were never
Meant to be
But I still wish
I hadn't given up
Yes I know now that I
Gave up
I am lucky just to
Have you
As a friend
I hope he knows
How lucky he is
Better than I did.
--11.9.04
Storms Ahead
I caught you like
A wispy cloud
So sweet and innocent
Honest and caring
What we had was beautiful
But you can't hold clouds for long.
--11.12.04
For Mandy
This
A poem
For one of the
Strongest people
I know
Who is caring
Original
Sensitive
Enthusiastic
Encouraging
Understanding
Pure
And for all this
A beautiful person
Who I love.
--11.14.04
For Alonzo
After all
That I've done
The only thing
I can do now
Is say I'm sorry
And thank you
Because I want you
To be happy
That's the least
You deserve
For all that you've done
For me.
--11.14.04
For Chi Chi
There was a time
You never knew about
Whe I was just glad
To have you there
I am still glad
You're here now because
I don't know what I'd do
Without you.
--11/14/04
For Shannon
I only want to asky
Why you don't care
That we lost such a bond
How best friends
Could become strangers
Part of me will always
Be empry because
You meant - mean
So much to me
Through all the moments
We shared
And thoughts we never spoke
But always knew
Were there
I was told friends are forever
I guess forever
Wasn't long enough.
--11.14.04
For Molly
What can I say
That hasn't been said
Before?
I am tired of repeating myself
And being unappreciated
You want to make this work
Then work
Is what you'll
Have to do.
--11.14.04
LinZ Says
LinZ says people
Are like trains
Picking up friends
Like passengers
And dropping others
Off.
Some are lazy
And didn't want to go far
So they only ride
For one stop
But some people
Stay on forever
Because they think it's fun
To ride the train.
If that train ever
Goes off course,
The passengers
May die too.
--11.14.04
And with that, I leave you to mull over your thoughts (and mine) and then post comments. Please! More coming soon, my mind is still buzzing. Love to all cause love is good.
Without you
The seeds root
The flowers bloom
The children play
The stars gleam
The poets dream
The eagles fly
Without you
The earth turns
The sun burns
But I die
Without you
~*~"Without You" RENT
And that song just goes on and on for ever, so we'll leave it at that. Anyway. Got into a thoughtful mood last night around midnight and wrote some poems, which I'd like to share along with a few others I wrote a while back, (BTW - it's it amazing? I'm on 2 whole days in a row! not weeks, days!)
A New Kind of Love
When I see your eyes
They sparkle like stars
And when I see your mouth
You face shines like the moon
As you walk through the field
I am watching you
Then it starts to rain
And I am sad for you
I want to bring you an umbrella
But then you'd know I was watching
So I wait for you to pass
And suddenly you are dancing
Spinning away the raindrops
Becoming a beautiful fountain
Flashing in the spray
I cannot hold back any longer
So I run to dance with you
I run between the raindrops
And then blend in with the falling
When the rain stops
The sun comes out
And finally you notice me
Because we are alone
Our gazes meet and I know
We are the same
I feel your soul
Never did I know such a connection existed
As the one I feel with you now
So please just love me
Together we can fight any opposition
In this hateful world.
--11.5.04
Real World
Finally things
Are going your way
So maybe you don't
Have to be scared
Anymore.
Things are going so well
It's as though
You left the real world
Behind. And left
Me behind in it.
--11.9.04
For Forgiving
It has taken me
All this time to realize
That we were never
Meant to be
But I still wish
I hadn't given up
Yes I know now that I
Gave up
I am lucky just to
Have you
As a friend
I hope he knows
How lucky he is
Better than I did.
--11.9.04
Storms Ahead
I caught you like
A wispy cloud
So sweet and innocent
Honest and caring
What we had was beautiful
But you can't hold clouds for long.
--11.12.04
For Mandy
This
A poem
For one of the
Strongest people
I know
Who is caring
Original
Sensitive
Enthusiastic
Encouraging
Understanding
Pure
And for all this
A beautiful person
Who I love.
--11.14.04
For Alonzo
After all
That I've done
The only thing
I can do now
Is say I'm sorry
And thank you
Because I want you
To be happy
That's the least
You deserve
For all that you've done
For me.
--11.14.04
For Chi Chi
There was a time
You never knew about
Whe I was just glad
To have you there
I am still glad
You're here now because
I don't know what I'd do
Without you.
--11/14/04
For Shannon
I only want to asky
Why you don't care
That we lost such a bond
How best friends
Could become strangers
Part of me will always
Be empry because
You meant - mean
So much to me
Through all the moments
We shared
And thoughts we never spoke
But always knew
Were there
I was told friends are forever
I guess forever
Wasn't long enough.
--11.14.04
For Molly
What can I say
That hasn't been said
Before?
I am tired of repeating myself
And being unappreciated
You want to make this work
Then work
Is what you'll
Have to do.
--11.14.04
LinZ Says
LinZ says people
Are like trains
Picking up friends
Like passengers
And dropping others
Off.
Some are lazy
And didn't want to go far
So they only ride
For one stop
But some people
Stay on forever
Because they think it's fun
To ride the train.
If that train ever
Goes off course,
The passengers
May die too.
--11.14.04
And with that, I leave you to mull over your thoughts (and mine) and then post comments. Please! More coming soon, my mind is still buzzing. Love to all cause love is good.
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Seasons of Love B
COMPANY
In diapers, report cards,
In spoked wheels and speeding tickets
In contracts, dollars, in funerals in births in
525,600 minutes
How do you fingure
A last year on earth
Figure in love
Figure in love
Figure in love
Measure in love
Seasons of love
~*~"Seasons of Love B" RENT
Ok so what, a week has gone by now? I've been soo frickin busy! ARG! And thanks everybody for commenting. Thank you, anonymous, for showing your ignorance. And squishy... if it makes you feel better, then I'm happy to be here. Anyway. So not much time, as usual, just wanted to check in and say hey before I'm off again. Been super busy with everything. Had my first speech meet yesterday. That was fun. and a litttle scary. But it's all good. And this weekend is the play... and I have 2 weeks off before I have to usher again, so I have a little bit of a life for a little bit!
To people in love: You lucky lucky bastards. And it's adorable.
To people I'm mad at: I bet I still love you. Talk to me.
To people I haven't seen in a while: I miss you all millions!
To myself: I miss you! I wanna go to NY and stay there and leave this shit behind!
Okay no more schizo for tonight. g2g. Love to all cause love is good. Post comments!
In diapers, report cards,
In spoked wheels and speeding tickets
In contracts, dollars, in funerals in births in
525,600 minutes
How do you fingure
A last year on earth
Figure in love
Figure in love
Figure in love
Measure in love
Seasons of love
~*~"Seasons of Love B" RENT
Ok so what, a week has gone by now? I've been soo frickin busy! ARG! And thanks everybody for commenting. Thank you, anonymous, for showing your ignorance. And squishy... if it makes you feel better, then I'm happy to be here. Anyway. So not much time, as usual, just wanted to check in and say hey before I'm off again. Been super busy with everything. Had my first speech meet yesterday. That was fun. and a litttle scary. But it's all good. And this weekend is the play... and I have 2 weeks off before I have to usher again, so I have a little bit of a life for a little bit!
To people in love: You lucky lucky bastards. And it's adorable.
To people I'm mad at: I bet I still love you. Talk to me.
To people I haven't seen in a while: I miss you all millions!
To myself: I miss you! I wanna go to NY and stay there and leave this shit behind!
Okay no more schizo for tonight. g2g. Love to all cause love is good. Post comments!
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Take Me or Leave Me
MAUREEN
A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage
Baby, let's have fun!
~*~"Take Me or Leave Me" RENT
Winding down... extremely slowly, as I'm barely posting once a week. Just got back from work a little while ago and felt like posting (and actually had time, !) so here I am. Before I get to the boring details of my life though, here are some poems (that way, if I run out of time, at least I haven't wasted it all on stuff you may already know).
{A few sentiments for our *cringe* president}
Acknowledging
In our society I see
That which has always been present
But never spoken of
A barrier, tearing a world apart
This barrier we must destroy
Nothing should deny an equality
That we fight for every day
Who are we, fools
To allow ignorance to rule
Our country is full of hate
Religious bias interfering
With a right that is unconditional
--10.7.04
Lessons
All people are created equal
That's what I learned in religion class
The Constitution demands equal rights for all
That's what I learned in history class
We can't control our hormones
That's what I learned in health class
Love is the most important thing to give and receive
That's what I learned in life
How can one man think he knows best?
Who is he, to define love?
If all people are created equal,
And we have equal rights,
And we can't control our hormones,
And love is the most important thing in the world,
Then how can we let anyone take that away?
--10.7.04
We the People
If I am an American
Then I have the right to safety
If I am an American
Then I have the right to freedom
If I am an American
Then I have the right to individuality
If I am an American
Then I have the right to choices
If I am an American
Then I have the right to equality
If I am an American
Then I have the right to love anyone I want.
--10.7.04
Ground Rules
A woman loves a woman
A man loves a man
Ignoring any gender
All that is left
Is love
A love that should
Be denied no right
Be embraced as beautiful
Be understood as equal
And be respected for love.
--10.7.04
Living or Lying
No one can tell me
What I want to do
No one can tell me
What I want to be
No one can tell me
How I want to live
So why should someone tell me
Who I want to love?
--10.25.04
{On to bigger and better things, I suppose}
The Wheels Turn
I watch the boy skate
As the busses line up
Though I don't know his name
I can't help but stare
Because I see the contrast
of the boy and the bus
He, so free as the
Prisons line up.
Those prisons soon to be filled
With schoolchildren
Forced into the chaotic din
And then forced out into the wind
In the place they must call home.
--11.3.04
Phobia
I love a girl
Who doesn't love me
Now wait a minute,
That's not true
She does love me
But not in the same way
It's a little confusing,
Isn't it?
--11.5.04
Johnny Says
Johnny says being
A "serious actor"
Is and oxymoron
Like "republican party"
Or "airplane food"
I think I agree.
--11.6.04
Pirate's Life
I see the smiles
On the children's faces
When they talk about their favorite movie.
The Pirate movie.
"Yo ho yo ho
A parrot's life for me."
They sing and laugh.
I smile
Because they can be happy
Even though they don't
Know the song.
And I wish I
Could make children happy
Too.
--11.6.04
Friends Anymore
When I get
Out of school
Everything changes
And I don't
Have friends
Anymore.
Because
We can't transcend
The void
From school friends
To real friends.
--11.6.04
{A few last thoughts...}
Creating Liberty
Your face bathed in the pale orange glow
A breeze slips between us
My hair blows about, trying to obscure my vision
I watch your fingers dance on the strings
Music floting from the guitar to the sky
Eyes have never witnessed such rapture
As you free the notes into the stars
Your eyes sparkle, reflecting your passion
Beauty flows from your soul into the night
A night made more precious by you.
--10.5.04
Fallen Heroine
She tried to hold up the world
But she failed and thousands died
Now she lives in exile
An unworthy savior
She walks away in disgrace,
Her red cape trailing on the ground
The shadow of a fallen heroine.
--10.13.04
Stepping Down
It's much too hard
To walk away
From the greatest thing in your life
Knowing there may
Never be
Something this wonderful again
Trying to hold on
Makes it
Slip away faster until
All that's left are negatives
But ignoring it
Makes it go
Away too.
--10.17.04
Double Entandra
Right in front of my eyes
You forget about me
And I'm ignored
Right to my face
You pretend I'm not even there
And I'm alone
If that's what you do right to my face
Or right in front of my eyes
I wonder what you're doing
Right behind my back
--10.22.04
Whew! Lots of typing. Okay well that's all for now. I haven't really been up to anything interesting, anyway. Just the usual school stuff, and work, and so on and so forth. Blah. *Dances away to the music in her head*
A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage
Baby, let's have fun!
~*~"Take Me or Leave Me" RENT
Winding down... extremely slowly, as I'm barely posting once a week. Just got back from work a little while ago and felt like posting (and actually had time, !) so here I am. Before I get to the boring details of my life though, here are some poems (that way, if I run out of time, at least I haven't wasted it all on stuff you may already know).
{A few sentiments for our *cringe* president}
Acknowledging
In our society I see
That which has always been present
But never spoken of
A barrier, tearing a world apart
This barrier we must destroy
Nothing should deny an equality
That we fight for every day
Who are we, fools
To allow ignorance to rule
Our country is full of hate
Religious bias interfering
With a right that is unconditional
--10.7.04
Lessons
All people are created equal
That's what I learned in religion class
The Constitution demands equal rights for all
That's what I learned in history class
We can't control our hormones
That's what I learned in health class
Love is the most important thing to give and receive
That's what I learned in life
How can one man think he knows best?
Who is he, to define love?
If all people are created equal,
And we have equal rights,
And we can't control our hormones,
And love is the most important thing in the world,
Then how can we let anyone take that away?
--10.7.04
We the People
If I am an American
Then I have the right to safety
If I am an American
Then I have the right to freedom
If I am an American
Then I have the right to individuality
If I am an American
Then I have the right to choices
If I am an American
Then I have the right to equality
If I am an American
Then I have the right to love anyone I want.
--10.7.04
Ground Rules
A woman loves a woman
A man loves a man
Ignoring any gender
All that is left
Is love
A love that should
Be denied no right
Be embraced as beautiful
Be understood as equal
And be respected for love.
--10.7.04
Living or Lying
No one can tell me
What I want to do
No one can tell me
What I want to be
No one can tell me
How I want to live
So why should someone tell me
Who I want to love?
--10.25.04
{On to bigger and better things, I suppose}
The Wheels Turn
I watch the boy skate
As the busses line up
Though I don't know his name
I can't help but stare
Because I see the contrast
of the boy and the bus
He, so free as the
Prisons line up.
Those prisons soon to be filled
With schoolchildren
Forced into the chaotic din
And then forced out into the wind
In the place they must call home.
--11.3.04
Phobia
I love a girl
Who doesn't love me
Now wait a minute,
That's not true
She does love me
But not in the same way
It's a little confusing,
Isn't it?
--11.5.04
Johnny Says
Johnny says being
A "serious actor"
Is and oxymoron
Like "republican party"
Or "airplane food"
I think I agree.
--11.6.04
Pirate's Life
I see the smiles
On the children's faces
When they talk about their favorite movie.
The Pirate movie.
"Yo ho yo ho
A parrot's life for me."
They sing and laugh.
I smile
Because they can be happy
Even though they don't
Know the song.
And I wish I
Could make children happy
Too.
--11.6.04
Friends Anymore
When I get
Out of school
Everything changes
And I don't
Have friends
Anymore.
Because
We can't transcend
The void
From school friends
To real friends.
--11.6.04
{A few last thoughts...}
Creating Liberty
Your face bathed in the pale orange glow
A breeze slips between us
My hair blows about, trying to obscure my vision
I watch your fingers dance on the strings
Music floting from the guitar to the sky
Eyes have never witnessed such rapture
As you free the notes into the stars
Your eyes sparkle, reflecting your passion
Beauty flows from your soul into the night
A night made more precious by you.
--10.5.04
Fallen Heroine
She tried to hold up the world
But she failed and thousands died
Now she lives in exile
An unworthy savior
She walks away in disgrace,
Her red cape trailing on the ground
The shadow of a fallen heroine.
--10.13.04
Stepping Down
It's much too hard
To walk away
From the greatest thing in your life
Knowing there may
Never be
Something this wonderful again
Trying to hold on
Makes it
Slip away faster until
All that's left are negatives
But ignoring it
Makes it go
Away too.
--10.17.04
Double Entandra
Right in front of my eyes
You forget about me
And I'm ignored
Right to my face
You pretend I'm not even there
And I'm alone
If that's what you do right to my face
Or right in front of my eyes
I wonder what you're doing
Right behind my back
--10.22.04
Whew! Lots of typing. Okay well that's all for now. I haven't really been up to anything interesting, anyway. Just the usual school stuff, and work, and so on and so forth. Blah. *Dances away to the music in her head*
Monday, November 01, 2004
Happy New Year B
ANGEL
People, is this any way
To start a new year
Have compassion,
Benny just lost his cat
BENNY
My dog
But I appreciate that
ANGEL
My cat had a fall
And I went through hell
BENNY
It's like losin' a-
How did you know that she fell?
~*~"Happy New Year B" RENT
Okay, feel like posting some poems, because they've piled up since September. Let's see what's in the vault...
Relenquish
Keep away from the fraying edges
As your reality shrinks to nothing
Doomed on a dying island
With nowhere to go but drowning
Forgotten in the world of the sleeping
Is a safety net now left to the dead
Useless are all our defenses
Stay away from the lurking dawns
A sparkling in the distance
The blade of your final demise
Creeping forward, ever watching
Eternally the only one
--9.27.04
Swan Song
I'm sitting on a chair
In a barren, empty room
Listening to the raindrops
Falling on the window
There's a single light
Shining overhead
But suddenly the chair
Is on a fully furnished stage
And the raindrops are the applause
Of the audience above
The light has become brighter
As a spotlight on my face
Filled with the urge to perform
I jump up and begin to dance
Singing and acting, belting out a show
Like no one has seen before
And no one will see again
I finish the show
Exit the stage
Ready to come back for my bow
But when I pass by the curtain,
The audience is gone
And I'm left with a chair in a room in the rain.
--9.29.04
People, is this any way
To start a new year
Have compassion,
Benny just lost his cat
BENNY
My dog
But I appreciate that
ANGEL
My cat had a fall
And I went through hell
BENNY
It's like losin' a-
How did you know that she fell?
~*~"Happy New Year B" RENT
Okay, feel like posting some poems, because they've piled up since September. Let's see what's in the vault...
Relenquish
Keep away from the fraying edges
As your reality shrinks to nothing
Doomed on a dying island
With nowhere to go but drowning
Forgotten in the world of the sleeping
Is a safety net now left to the dead
Useless are all our defenses
Stay away from the lurking dawns
A sparkling in the distance
The blade of your final demise
Creeping forward, ever watching
Eternally the only one
--9.27.04
Swan Song
I'm sitting on a chair
In a barren, empty room
Listening to the raindrops
Falling on the window
There's a single light
Shining overhead
But suddenly the chair
Is on a fully furnished stage
And the raindrops are the applause
Of the audience above
The light has become brighter
As a spotlight on my face
Filled with the urge to perform
I jump up and begin to dance
Singing and acting, belting out a show
Like no one has seen before
And no one will see again
I finish the show
Exit the stage
Ready to come back for my bow
But when I pass by the curtain,
The audience is gone
And I'm left with a chair in a room in the rain.
--9.29.04
Voice Mail #3
MARK'S MOM
Mark, it's the wicked witch of the west
Your Mother
Happy new year from Scarsdale
We're all impressed that the riot footage
Made the nightly news
Even your father says "mazeltov"
Honey, call him
Love Mom
~*~ "Voice Mail #3" RENT
Agh suddenly nothing matters anymore and i don't remember what i was gonna say cause i'm tlaking to leslie who MET JOHNNY DEPP ON SATURDAY NIGHT.
end of post. more when i can think straight again (i.e. never)
Mark, it's the wicked witch of the west
Your Mother
Happy new year from Scarsdale
We're all impressed that the riot footage
Made the nightly news
Even your father says "mazeltov"
Honey, call him
Love Mom
~*~ "Voice Mail #3" RENT
Agh suddenly nothing matters anymore and i don't remember what i was gonna say cause i'm tlaking to leslie who MET JOHNNY DEPP ON SATURDAY NIGHT.
end of post. more when i can think straight again (i.e. never)
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Happy New Year
MIMI
I couldn't crack the love code dear
Till you made the lock on my hear explode
It's gonna be a happy new year
~*~"Happy New Year" Rent
I was just thinking... Crap. What was I thinking? Oh right right right. I'm talking to my dear friend Carly, who I met at the con, and I'm thinking about con.
I already miss being at con, and the next one isn't until the end of January. :( There's lots of people there who are just fun to be around and talk to. Gosh... I miss everone who was in my touch group, and silent football people, and people I just met other ways, and getting to spend time with Al and Mandy... I miss you guys!
And the power went out at school yesterday, so we didn't get to have GSA after school. Although it also meant I didn't have speech practice with Morain, the nazi! I did go see her today before I went to practice though... I need to start getting my speech written. It has to be memorized in 2 1/2 weeks, and it doesn't even exist yet! But I think I would have rather had GSA and speech than had neither. I missed GSA last week cause I was sick on Tuesday.
Speaking of being sick on Tuesday, I made up that dance class on Monday, so I had dance 2 days in a row, and I pulled a muscle in my left leg yesterday. Fun fun fun. Spent a lot of time talking to blondie. And we got to learn part of the choreography for Thriller. That was fun too.
Okay well I'm being kicked off now. So I'll write later... whever I get a chance, I guess.
I couldn't crack the love code dear
Till you made the lock on my hear explode
It's gonna be a happy new year
~*~"Happy New Year" Rent
I was just thinking... Crap. What was I thinking? Oh right right right. I'm talking to my dear friend Carly, who I met at the con, and I'm thinking about con.
I already miss being at con, and the next one isn't until the end of January. :( There's lots of people there who are just fun to be around and talk to. Gosh... I miss everone who was in my touch group, and silent football people, and people I just met other ways, and getting to spend time with Al and Mandy... I miss you guys!
And the power went out at school yesterday, so we didn't get to have GSA after school. Although it also meant I didn't have speech practice with Morain, the nazi! I did go see her today before I went to practice though... I need to start getting my speech written. It has to be memorized in 2 1/2 weeks, and it doesn't even exist yet! But I think I would have rather had GSA and speech than had neither. I missed GSA last week cause I was sick on Tuesday.
Speaking of being sick on Tuesday, I made up that dance class on Monday, so I had dance 2 days in a row, and I pulled a muscle in my left leg yesterday. Fun fun fun. Spent a lot of time talking to blondie. And we got to learn part of the choreography for Thriller. That was fun too.
Okay well I'm being kicked off now. So I'll write later... whever I get a chance, I guess.
Seasons Of Love
SOLOIST
In truths that he learned
Or in times that she cried
In the bridges he burned
Or the way that she died
ALL
It's time now to sing out
Though the story never ends
Let's celebrate remember a year
In the life of friends
~*~"Seasons of Love" RENT
So we enter ACT II. You will all be happy to know there are only 16 more songs left. Hahaha. Yeah. Only 16. Anyway.
The song brings up the interesting topic of friends... Oh what a subject, one I always find myself thinking about. Why am I so bad at choosing friends? Or is it that I'm so desperate that I just have to latch onto whoever I can find? I know I'm a hard person to get along with... I'm opinionated and I have a strong personality. In fact, in the car on the way home from dance yesterday, my mom said she thinks I scare the shit out of some people. While that is extremely amusing, it's unfortunate that I don't have friends. I'm not changing though. I like who I am. What fun would it be to be artificial??? (I sense a poem coming on...)
Anyway. So yeah. Not been in the greatest mood lately. Sounds like I'll be busy this weekend... speech practice on Friday, ushering, the show Saturday, ushering, church Sunday, ushering, over to Alex's house, ushering, possible party with cast members to follow. Not much halloween festivities for Z. Oh well. It's *not* like Halloween is my favorite holiday or anything...
Leslie have the most awesomest time ever on Saturday! I'm sooo jealous I can't believe it! AHHH! Can't wait for ALLL the details upon your return... Yeah. And happy week-late birthday...
Um, have a good Halloween, everybody, I guess. I'll just go sulk now... Nah. I'm not letting people get me down. I'll go dance or play guitar, or write something. Hum.
In truths that he learned
Or in times that she cried
In the bridges he burned
Or the way that she died
ALL
It's time now to sing out
Though the story never ends
Let's celebrate remember a year
In the life of friends
~*~"Seasons of Love" RENT
So we enter ACT II. You will all be happy to know there are only 16 more songs left. Hahaha. Yeah. Only 16. Anyway.
The song brings up the interesting topic of friends... Oh what a subject, one I always find myself thinking about. Why am I so bad at choosing friends? Or is it that I'm so desperate that I just have to latch onto whoever I can find? I know I'm a hard person to get along with... I'm opinionated and I have a strong personality. In fact, in the car on the way home from dance yesterday, my mom said she thinks I scare the shit out of some people. While that is extremely amusing, it's unfortunate that I don't have friends. I'm not changing though. I like who I am. What fun would it be to be artificial??? (I sense a poem coming on...)
Anyway. So yeah. Not been in the greatest mood lately. Sounds like I'll be busy this weekend... speech practice on Friday, ushering, the show Saturday, ushering, church Sunday, ushering, over to Alex's house, ushering, possible party with cast members to follow. Not much halloween festivities for Z. Oh well. It's *not* like Halloween is my favorite holiday or anything...
Leslie have the most awesomest time ever on Saturday! I'm sooo jealous I can't believe it! AHHH! Can't wait for ALLL the details upon your return... Yeah. And happy week-late birthday...
Um, have a good Halloween, everybody, I guess. I'll just go sulk now... Nah. I'm not letting people get me down. I'll go dance or play guitar, or write something. Hum.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
La Vie Boheme B
ALL
Music
ANGEL
Food of love
Emotion
Mathematics isolation
Rhythm, feeling power
Harmony and heavy competition
ALL
Anarchy
MIMI & COLLINS
Revolution
Justice, screaming for solutions
Forcing changes
Risk and danger
Making noise and making pleas
ALL
To faggots, lezzies, dykes
Cross dressers too
MAUREEN
To me
JOANNE
To me
COLLINS & ANGEL
To me
ALL
To you and you and you
You and you
To people living living living with living with
Not dying from disease
~*~"La Vie Boheme B" RENT
WOW! I haven't posted in forever! I've been so friggin busy and I have so much to say and, as usual, no time to say it. Lemme see the quickest summary I can give you of what I've done and what I'm up too, just in case it's 2 more weeks before I post again.
Been busy with speech, play, drama class, dance, and GSA. Spent Columbus Day weekend in Wisconsin visiting family. Spent last weekend in Springfield for a con. Muy bueno.
Going to "Innocents" rehearsal and babysitting on Saturday. Have church and then RENT! on Sunday. Next weekend ushering on friday, going to see Sweeny Todd on Saturday (possibly ushering) Halloween party and possible ushering on Sunday. Sound busy enough? I thought so.
Yeah, that's really what I'm up to though. Plus homework, and I went to mathletes yesterday. So! I've been doing a few things.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh! I got a puppy on Sunday! His name is Kramer and he's a beagle and he turned 8 weeks old on Tuesday. I love my puppy! Oooh and I love Josh! And I guess Jake, cause I get to taste his rainbow (??? don't ask).
I went to the orthodontist today and got my bottom brackets put on. That was a laugh and a half. Oy. But I got out of the first 3 periods of the day so it's all good. I g2g now and finish editing my story for english. See you all when I see you!
Music
ANGEL
Food of love
Emotion
Mathematics isolation
Rhythm, feeling power
Harmony and heavy competition
ALL
Anarchy
MIMI & COLLINS
Revolution
Justice, screaming for solutions
Forcing changes
Risk and danger
Making noise and making pleas
ALL
To faggots, lezzies, dykes
Cross dressers too
MAUREEN
To me
JOANNE
To me
COLLINS & ANGEL
To me
ALL
To you and you and you
You and you
To people living living living with living with
Not dying from disease
~*~"La Vie Boheme B" RENT
WOW! I haven't posted in forever! I've been so friggin busy and I have so much to say and, as usual, no time to say it. Lemme see the quickest summary I can give you of what I've done and what I'm up too, just in case it's 2 more weeks before I post again.
Been busy with speech, play, drama class, dance, and GSA. Spent Columbus Day weekend in Wisconsin visiting family. Spent last weekend in Springfield for a con. Muy bueno.
Going to "Innocents" rehearsal and babysitting on Saturday. Have church and then RENT! on Sunday. Next weekend ushering on friday, going to see Sweeny Todd on Saturday (possibly ushering) Halloween party and possible ushering on Sunday. Sound busy enough? I thought so.
Yeah, that's really what I'm up to though. Plus homework, and I went to mathletes yesterday. So! I've been doing a few things.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh! I got a puppy on Sunday! His name is Kramer and he's a beagle and he turned 8 weeks old on Tuesday. I love my puppy! Oooh and I love Josh! And I guess Jake, cause I get to taste his rainbow (??? don't ask).
I went to the orthodontist today and got my bottom brackets put on. That was a laugh and a half. Oy. But I got out of the first 3 periods of the day so it's all good. I g2g now and finish editing my story for english. See you all when I see you!
Sunday, October 03, 2004
I Should Tell You
ROGER
I should tell you I'm disaster
I forget how to begin it
MIMI
Let's just make this part go faster
I have yet to be in it
~*~"I Should Tell You" RENT
I have so much I would say right now but I just don't have time. I'm so frickin busy lately that I don't have time to talk to people. I have drama rehearsals Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I have GSA and dance on Tuesday. I have drama class on Thursday. I have speech meetings. On the weekends (and some weeknights) I usher at the theatre. Sundays I go to church. And in my spare time (spare being a loosely used term) I have plenty of homework to do. And starting very soon, I will also have rehearsal for "The Innocents" which is the play I'm understudying in at ITC. Oy I'm tired. But I have to go... because right now, I do have to go to work.
Damn. I had tons of poems to post, but I can't do that now. Maybe later today... my homework's done and I'm not ushering at the evening show tonight. We'll see.
I should tell you I'm disaster
I forget how to begin it
MIMI
Let's just make this part go faster
I have yet to be in it
~*~"I Should Tell You" RENT
I have so much I would say right now but I just don't have time. I'm so frickin busy lately that I don't have time to talk to people. I have drama rehearsals Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I have GSA and dance on Tuesday. I have drama class on Thursday. I have speech meetings. On the weekends (and some weeknights) I usher at the theatre. Sundays I go to church. And in my spare time (spare being a loosely used term) I have plenty of homework to do. And starting very soon, I will also have rehearsal for "The Innocents" which is the play I'm understudying in at ITC. Oy I'm tired. But I have to go... because right now, I do have to go to work.
Damn. I had tons of poems to post, but I can't do that now. Maybe later today... my homework's done and I'm not ushering at the evening show tonight. We'll see.
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